Unspoken Hearts

Chapter 19

"But how did you find out that Siddharth loves Kiara?" Nathan asked Amelia.

She shrugged it off like it doesn't matter to her but I could see the pain in her eyes.

How could I not? I have been through the same. I have felt the same pain. There was a time, when the role was vice versa.

"He murmured it in his sleep and then hugged me thinking I was Kiara." The pain in her voice was evident. It was hard to even formulate the words and speak.

For Siddharth, he still hasn't come to meet me. Maybe he doesn't know that I am awake or he doesn't care. Either way I don't care about him anymore.

Can't believe I used to love him.
What a bad taste I had in man back then to choose him. Ew.

At least I have Nathan now.
I looked at Nathan and smiled at him. He was already looking at me. His smile made my whole body burn up and I could feel my cheeks turning red.

"Enough of that guys. Stop blushing. I'm still here." Amelia hissed. I chuckled and averted my eyes. I couldn't remove my eyes off his pretty face. 

I couldn't help myself. I am sick in love with him.

The whole world feels beautiful again to me. It doesn't seem colourless anymore. Even this white hospital room, seemed colourful to me.

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•×• Siddharth POV •×•

What did I do? How bad a person has to be to be like me?

What the fuck is wrong with me? Neither was i a good friend nor a good finance.

I stared at the empty road aimlessly with the ring in my hand. The engagement ring. She broke off our engagement.

She left me.

We are over.

Her voice kept ringing in my mind.

How could I? I was playing with her life. Not only hers. I also played with Kiara's life.

Even if it was unintentionally, I gave her mixed signals. And then she mistook my friendship for love.

I should've told her everything, rather than acting unaware when I very well knew she was in love with me.

I thought, ignoring her and making distance with her would demean her love for me but when I came back with Amelia, i realised she was still in love with me.

I don't wish to go back home anymore. I know there is no place for me anymore back there. They all must hate me now.

Maa will hate me. She didn't upbring me like this. She never taught me to play with people feelings.

I should leave. And until and less I become someone, that deserves to be called as her son I will not come back.

About Amelia. I hope she will wait for me. But even if she moves on, i wish the best for her. I know I have hurt her too much and she probably doesn't want to see my face anymore.

But if she will stay single, i will do everything to convince her and have her in my life.

I got up from the path and started walking towards the house. It didn't take long for me, considering the hospital was only 15 minutes away from our house.

I hurriedly unlocked the door and ran towards my room.

I packed everything I got my hands on. Closing the zip of the bag, I sat down and stared at my room.

The room seemed empty, most of the clothes were packed in the bag and the wardrobe was left open with few of my clothes resting in it.

My eyes landed on the photoframe hanging in front of me. It was from when me and Amelia were spending our weekend on the Lagos beach in Portugal.

How happy I was with her. And how happy she was with me. I can't believe I am the same person, who would take care of her like a glass doll on her periods, giving her every thing she might need without her having to ask for it and now I don't even know what she feels about me. What she wants from me.

When did I changed so much?

I became exactly what I have hated all these years.

A cheater.

A two timer.

I hurriedly picked up the pen and paper and began to write in it.  I expressed everything. My fault. My realisation. My mistake. How am I going to repent and how much I love them and will miss them.

I poured all the weighs of my heart on that piece of paper.

I read it over and over again, confirming that I haven't said anything that might offend anyone.

I folded it, placed it on my night table, and placed my perfume bottle on top of it.

"I'll miss this."

I removed the photo off the wall and kept it close to me as I walk away from this house. From this life. From my responsibility.

Once again, i was running away from my responsibility. But this time, after I sort everything. Me and my problems.

My problems will have no place in my families life.

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Tbh I didn't see this coming either 😭
Forgive me 😭
We will make Siddharth suffer 😋
Worst chapter tbh

See ya in the next chapter
Biee