The Boy Savior - Ekko x Reader | DISCONTINUED

Season 2 - Chapter 23

"Does it work the same  as when you heal?" Ekko asked, leaning against the little table standing  by your bed. His fingers were still absentmindedly fiddling with his  own lips as his thoughts visibly raced through his mind.

"No.  Not at all..." You sighed tiredly. You walked up to your window and  eased yourself down to sit on the window sill, looking out at the people  rushing around the firelight base. If  you forgot about the fact that they were all preparing themselves for  an upcoming battle, the hideout looked almost like a year ago on an  average day, when everything was still normal...

Well, compared to what counted as normal in Zaun...

"I  needed to think of something happy when I healed. You know, a thought, a  person, or a memory that made me feel warm." You explained as your eyes  got pinned onto the dark, empty entrance of the hideout.

"When this  happens, I usually feel scared or... angry." You added in a low voice,  still avoiding looking at Ekko, who remained silent for a few seconds,  digesting your words.

You  cursed your stupid heart for beating way too fast. A part of you was  scared of his answer, while the other was trying to convince you that  you shouldn't even care...

"So when I tried to kiss you..." the boy started quietly, but you cut him off before he could have finished.

"Yes,  Ekko. What did you expect me to feel?" You finally gathered your  strength to look at him. He didn't seem angry or scared. He was only  sad. And the way he looked at you just made you more pissed. He caused this... He should have been sad before  he kissed her... Or when he went with Heimerdinger, no matter how you  begged him not to go... "After what you did... You march in here with  Jinx by your side, behave the way you do with her in front of everyone,  not caring the slightest how that makes me feel, and you also never  forget to shove it into my face every few hours how you still love the person that  almost killed me..."

Ekko blinked in his surprise and opened his mouth to say something, but you cut him off once again.

"Not  just me, because I know you don't really care about that, but also you,  Scar, and Raven, just to name a few." You gestured around yourself  vehemently. "Oh, and don't forget about Eve! Or the countless other  faces on the mural you seemed to value so much before you realized you  might still have a chance with her..." You finally stopped to swallow,  and when your eyes got filled with the tears of your anger, you looked  away from the boy.

You  pinned your eyes back onto the entrance, seeing it more and more as an  escape route rather than the door to the place you believed to be your  home for so long...

You wanted to just get away. Never to look back...

"I  keep messing up, huh?" Ekko asked in a low voice after long, long  seconds of silent thinking, and you shrugged as you were silently trying  to fight back all the emotions you still had fuming inside you.

"Depends on what's the goal..." you replied quietly without looking at him. "If you are trying to get rid of me, then it's certainly working..."  you scoffed to yourself bitterly.

You  heard the young firelight sigh, and then, a second later, he stepped to  sit down across from you, leaning against the wooden frame of the  window behind him. The way he thought he could still be so comfortable around you annoyed you way too much...

"When  I was stuck in that other reality," the boy started speaking, but his words  were unsure. It seemed like he was still trying to find his words, and  you only rolled your eyes because you were getting so tired of his  explanations... "It was hard to keep myself apart from the other... me.  It felt like his memories were constantly trying to mend with mine, and I had  to often remind myself who I was and where I belonged..."