What About Now?

Chapter 16 - The Return Of Pegasus

My wolf is gone.

The whole week I tried calling out to her, pleading with her to return, but my pleas fell on deaf ears; she is no longer present in my mind.

I feel like I lost my guardian angel, my best friend. It's hard to concentrate without her presence, and as a result I find myself barely paying attention to anything or anyone.

"Kailani?"

I raise my head to briefly glance at Levi's worried gaze before moving back to push the salad around my dinner plate.

"I'm sorry, did you say something?" I ask, continuing to keep my gaze locked on my uneaten dinner.

Suddenly, I hold onto the spinning armchair tightly and squeal. I open my shocked blue eyes to find myself facing Levi's kneeling form. He lifts my chin, taking in my flushed face before moving to push a strand of blonde hair behind my ear.

"Kailani, I have been nothing but patient, but my patience is wearing thin. I have not commanded you upon your request; however, I will do so if your health continues to deteriorate." His dark eyes hold promise, sparkling against the light of the chandelier hanging in the middle of the dining room table.

I recall waking up in the familiar hospital bed with bandages wrapped around my hands, legs, and neck. Yet, my wounds were the least of my worries. The second I woke up I tired contacting my wolf. I even tried cracking a few jokes to get her to answer, but there was no answer, no presence; she was truly gone. It's like I wasn't even born with a wolf to begin with. 

I gripped the bed sheets tightly at the though and sobbed loudly. I could feel someone holding me firmly against them as my body racked with sobs, and was glad to feel the familiar sparks. Eventually,  my tight hold loosened against the bed sheets to embrace the only person I had left in my life.

I recall his worried expression all too well. He made sure I was well taken care of. He never once left my side unless it was absolutely imperative and constantly made certain Doctor Collins was doing his job "properly."

He tried countless of times to persuade me to tell him why I ran away, why I freaked out like that; but I refused to answer. I always gave him the same response, " I don't want to talk about it."

If he finds out my wolf is gone then my secret would be revealed. I would be caught. But he is really persistent, constantly questioning and and at times threatening his royal command on me. But I begged him not to. Perhaps my weakened state at the time is what made him agree.

His hand gingerly brushes against my face. I lift my head to meet his penetrating dark eyes.

"Please Kailani, talk to me." He continues to stroke the side of my face, causing me sigh as I lean into his soft touch. However, I know that if he gets any closer to me then I'll just do the one thing that I've been wanting to do for so long. Tell him the truth. Therefore, I smile sadly and remove his hand and push my chair back to stand.

My knee length grey dress shimmers against the light as I move towards the door.

"Where do you think you're going? We're not done here!" He growls menacingly and makes me cringe as my hand simultaneously lands on the door.

"I'm tired," I mutter dejectedly and push the door open without sparing him a glance.

Before I can set one foot out the door he uses his wolf's speed to whirl me around and close it. He presses my body against the door and holds my chin, forcing me to gaze to look into his wolf's eyes.

"If you don't tell me willingly then I will force you tell me." He appears to be struggling with himself. His eyes keep shifting between his and his wolfs.