What About Now?

Chapter 34 - Revelations

The next two days were filled with Lex and I hanging out with the pack. I attended as many gatherings as I could and visited the kids often. I wanted to keep busy, because the more active I was, the easier it was to forget him.

Levi didn't visit, not once. There were times when I felt his presence at night, watching me sleep, but then I'd open my eyes to find no one there. Perhaps, it was a figment of my imagination; something my mind could latch on to.

Lex snapping her fingers in front of my face breaks me away from my tumultuous thoughts; thoughts concerning my mate, the mate that hasn't bothered to talk to me.

"Hey, Kailani, do you want to watch another movie?" She holds up the remote, a worried expression on her face.

Lex knew that I was Translucent, but never commented on it. She knew I didn't want to talk about it, but nevertheless tried to get me to open up to her, claiming I'd feel better, but I didn't, I felt worse.

I shake my head, feeling exhaustion seep into my bones.

I've been trying to stay strong these past two days, holding my head high just like Thenora would, just like a Queen would. But it's getting harder on my aching muscles, harder to pretend my wolf's strength isn't slowly leaving my body.

"Thanks Lex, but I think I'm just going to rest for a while."

She nods rather fearfully, worried to leave me alone. I can see the concern so clearly written in her eyes as I stand on shaky legs.

Lex has been extremely observant these past two days, watching my movements carefully, as if afraid that at one given point I'll just collapse, but I refuse to go down without a fight. I need to stay strong.

Richard and Luke follow warily behind me, both sending each other worried side glances when they think I'm not looking. Along with Diana and Lex, they've also noticed my movements become more sluggish, weaker.

I pay them no attention as they continue following me down the hallway, standing behind me ever so closely incase I fall or trip; something I've been doing a lot lately.

I keep my head lowered, counting down the marbled tiles to my room; something I've come to memorize already. But when a strong gust of wind blows my hair back, I stop in my tracks, raising my head toward its direction, shockingly staring at the doors of the open storage room creaking open.

"My Queen, are you well?" Richard holds my trembling shoulders tightly, searching for any possible threats to my reaction.

"Yeah, just the door over there," I motion with my head. "Just startled me when it opened like that."

Richard eyes Luke cautiously before both their gazes fall on me.

"Your majesty, the storage room doors are closed." Richard holds me steadily, helping me stand as the disbelief registers on my face.

Am I losing my mind? I could have sworn it was open.

I quickly recover and stand tall, wiping the look of disbelief that was displayed on my face moments ago.

I don't move my line of sight towards their worried eyes, because that's the only thing I know I'll see. Worry for their dying Queen.

"Please stand guard outside." They both look like they're about to protest until I hold my hand midair, silencing them. "As respect for your Queen," I add.

I open the doors of the storage room, closing it behind me, and release a breath of air I didn't know I was holding in.

The piano rests in its usual spot, by the window. The sunshine only brightens it, making it feel even more inviting than it already is.