What About Now?

Chapter 30 - Lesson Learned

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I sigh as I stare at the foreign symbols scribbled across the board and try my best to focus on taking notes.

"Hey, princess!" Noah's whispers, a concerned expression spread across his face, which swiftly turns into a frown at the appearance of my gloomy state. He sets his pencil down and turns his body to face me, as if silently asking what's wrong? However, I just give him a tight lipped smile, which seems more like a grimace before turning back to stare at the blackboard. 

I quickly glance towards Mrs. Wilson's tiny form scribbling away across the board. I let out a nervous breath; glad she didn't catch my brief interaction with Noah. I turn my attention back to the assignment at hand. There are multiple graphs drawn across the board. Yet, I can't find the energy to take notes, let alone understand why all the graphs are pointing downwards. Hmm... maybe they're going to hell?

Through my peripheral vision I see Noah still staring, but I attempt to ignore him, picking my pencil up and pretending to take notes. The thing is, he wants to know what's got me so down, but I don't even know the answer to that myself. All I know is that ever since I woke up this morning I've been feeling off. My body aches, like a thousand needles are pricking my skin; but the worst part is my neck. My mark feels sore and appears to worsen every time I do anything strenuous like walking, talking, and at this point breathing.

I was prepared to question Levi on the matter this morning. I mean, usually when I get sick I prefer to suffer in silence. I'm not one to start acting like a five year old and pretend I'm dying, I have more backbone then that. Yet, this sensation didn't feel normal. I know for certain it's not my powers, because the vibe isn't the same. When my powers are present my body feels alive, almost aware of all of my surroundings. But this is different; this feels draining. However, when I open my eyes this morning, he isn't there, lying beside me like I expect; leaving me to stare at the room's black colored ceiling. That color definitely needs to go, I think miserably.

It took some time for me to stand and when I finally did I found myself panting, as if I just ran a marathon. I walk into his, or should I say our bathroom to do my morning routine. Maybe a shower is what I need. I spent a good portion of my time in there, allowing the hot water to sooth my aching muscles. I took deep breaths, trying to calm whatever seemed to be happening to me. Finally, feeling slightly better, I shut the knobs and stepped out. After dressing in jeans and a white sweater I set off to find Levi. However, was met by Diana instead. Unfortunately, "the king had to attend to other matters, leaving you to go to school alone," as Diana so eloquently put it.

The bell finally rang, breaking me away from my thoughts and scurrying away from Noah's scrutiny. I probably wouldn't have escaped him if it weren't for the girls surrounding him. I guess they were good for one thing.

Walking down the school's halls I can't help but feel slightly hurt. Sometimes when I want Levi to be there for me, he just isn't. People say it's the big things in life that people need to be there for. But, aren't the little things also the big things? And on top of that I thought we could finally talk about my mom. I wanted to know how the supposed search party was going, because the thing is, I didn't give him my mom's physical description, so who exactly is he looking for?

I walk into my history class and take my seat, setting my books down on my desk. I glance towards Levi's empty seat and sigh. Is it really selfish of me to want him to just be there for me? The thought makes a bolt of lightning shoot up my body, but not the pleasurable kind that I get when being around Levi. This shock is painful, causing me to bite on my lip to hold in my whimper.