𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐁𝐈𝐃𝐃𝐄𝐍 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄 (𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐁𝐈𝐋𝐋𝐈𝐎𝐍𝐀𝐈𝐑𝐄 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐈𝐄𝐒)

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Every day, I saw a new side of Onome; she was just too complex to understand; one minute she was acting one way, the next another; I could not understand her, even though I desperately wanted to.

In one moment, she was a stranger to me, and in another, we shared moments that strangers couldn't. I wanted to be as far away from her as possible, but when she gets so close, everything changes.

Was it her pretty face?

She was a like a wildflower growing in the cracks of the pavement, enchanting and free, yet a reminder of the chaos that beauty can bring.

She had a certain allure. I just could not put my hands on it.

She was a captivating puzzle wrapped in a kaleidoscope of colors, each twist revealing a new layer of intrigue.

Most of the time, I did not want to see her because I could not stand her; other times, I found myself reminiscing about her; whenever I saw her suffering, I felt intense guilt; it reminded me that someone else's life was being ruined, and I was playing a significant role in it.

The way she begged for it, Onome could literally do anything to get that stuff; it was a pitiful sight.

It was crazy when she had those scary episodes.

I even did some research. Some people with Generalized Anxiety Disorder may use or abuse substances to cope with their anxiety.

Some people with GAD may use drugs or alcohol to temporarily alleviate their anxiety symptoms, but these only provide a temporary escape from worry and tension.

Onome was also self-medicating. The use of drugs and alcohol can lead to dependence or addiction, and I had no idea which stage she was in right now. This can exacerbate her mental health problems.

The use of substances and pills has the potential to exacerbate anxiety symptoms in the long run, creating a vicious cycle of increasing anxiety and substance use.

The most complicating part of this was addressing substance or pills abuse in individuals with GAD may complicate treatment, as anxiety may increase during withdrawal or when substances are not being used.

From what I gathered, the only thing that stood out was her need for professional assistance.

To handle and help her, you need wisdom. I needed to persuade her that she needed help, but how should I go about it?

I felt terrible because she was clearly suffering. She was shattered underneath. Her substance abuse was too severe. I saw firsthand what that shit could do to someone. I felt nasty, it just reminded me, I was also destroying people's life.

"I get the urge, and I just can not control it," she said, sniffling, as I held her.

"Yes, you can," I replied. "You spend a lot of time in your head," I added, touching her head.

"It's draining." She mumbled.

"It is all in your head. You are overthinking everything; there is nothing wrong with you," I said.

The truth remained that in order to find a solution, the cause had to be identified. The question now was what was causing all of this, and what was going on in her head.