"Pretty Little Promise's"

Chapter 59 Oh my love

Thereese:

“Are you still mad?” I asked her, standing on the balcony.  She’d been ignoring me for days, like I was just air around her.  Not a word.  The atmosphere felt heavy, silent, awkward.  I could feel the distance between us, a coldness that mirrored the chill in her heart.  We'd come so far, it felt like we weren't the same couple anymore, the happy, loving pair we used to be.

HINDI KO NA DIN RAMDAM ANG RELASYON .

"Sabihin mo naman kung galit ka pa saakin , don’t just avoid me,” I pleaded.  My voice was weak, but filled with hope that she’d say something good.  I just wanted things to be okay.  I wanted to go back to the way we were, happy and in love.

I leaned closer, trying to see into her eyes.  To understand what she was thinking.  This situation was so painful, not knowing where I stood, what to do to fix things.  It felt like I was floating, unsure where I’d land.

“Ganto nalang?” I tried again, looking for a way to make things right.  To bring back the joy and tenderness we used to share.  But it seemed too late.  We’d come too far.  It was hard to recapture that spark we once had.

She glanced at me.  “What did you say? Did I hear ‘Ganto nalang’?” she said, her voice firm.  Her tone was like ice, piercing my heart.  It felt like she didn’t care anymore.  Like it was all over.

“Ang kapal naman ng mukha mo! Who are you to tell me off?  eh ikaw tong pabaya sa relasyon natin!”  Her voice was softer now, but still laced with doubt.  She was making it seem like I was the one to blame, that I was the one who messed up.  But it wasn’t that simple.  We both had our faults.  We both made mistakes.

“And then what?” I asked, without hesitation.  She didn’t understand.  We were fighting over such a small thing. 

“Are you tired of this? Just tell me, so we can end it sooner.  Don’t just keep avoiding me whenever we fight.”  It hurt so much.  It felt like my heart was being squeezed.  I wished I could just disappear.

lagi nalang nag uumpisa sa maliit na bagay

“Uuwi ako sa bahay sa Bamban. Let’s just cool off. Ayoko munang makipag away,” she said, turning away and leaving.  It was so quick.  Like a gust of wind, she was gone.  It felt like a dream.

“Oh come on, Alice!” I quickly chased after her, grabbing her right hand.

I didn’t want to lose her. 

I didn’t want this to be over. 

I still wanted to be with her. 

I wanted to fix everything.

“Always like this, huh? Why don’t you want to fix our relationship? Pagod ka na ba? oh may iba ka na " The words just came out.  I couldn’t stop them.  Jealousy, fear, pain… it was all mixed together.  I felt like screaming.

“Bitawan mo nga ako!” she yelled.

"And our six years together?" sambit ko sa kanya

Anim na taon, and this is how it ends? dahil sa kapabayaan ko
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🌪️🌪️🌪️

She went home.

She took what she needed, but not all her things.

Hindi na nakakatuwa…

I wasn’t happy with this relationship anymore.  Everything was wrong.  It felt so heavy, so hard to live with.