"Pretty Little Promise's"

Chapter 84 "Mess Up with Me"

Risa:

Dinner’s over…

Hay

Ni hindi pa nga maayos ang pagkakakilala ng anak namin sa kanya , I am not that stupid woman to let this happen ..

Kabit siya ng asawa ko and I am the legal wife so i have the rights !

Ang kabit ay hindi kailanman magiging legal tulad ko

In fact pwede ko siyang bawiin sa kabit niya

Mga malalandi !! walang hiya , pukpok ko sainyo dealdough ko eh !! 

… Donya Tesoro… she’ll never be as real as I am to Alice. Never. She can never replace me. Never. That thought is a bitter pill, but I have to swallow it. Because the truth is, Alice is already gone. She’s moved on. And I’m left here, picking up the pieces of a broken life.  Picking up the pieces of my shattered heart.

She has Alice, but she doesn’t know how incredibly, intensely delicious Alice is in bed.

Oo nahalikan na niya ang asawa ko pero ako naman ang nakauna

Oh, Alice better than anyone. I’ve explored every curve, every inch of her body. I’ve tasted her, touched her… intimately.

Gaya ng pagsabunot ko sa kanya , pagkain ........ never mind

I know her like the back of my hand. I know her desires, her hidden passions, the way her breath hitches when she’s close to climax. And this woman… this interloper… she has no idea. She’s just a pale imitation of what I am to Alice. A cheap, pathetic substitute for the real thing. A shadow of what we had. A poor imitation of the real thing.

I pay the bills. Before we go home with Sevi, even if there’s barely anything left in my wallet

Kase nga naghihirap na ang tao ngani!

I still manage to scrape together something. Even though I’m drowning in debt, I do it all  For Sevi.

The drive home is agony. My heart aches with a dull, persistent pain.

Parang may matinding bigat sa dibdib ko. I don’t know what to do with myself.

What decision will I make today?

ay tonight pala gabi na eh

punyeta di manlang ako pinansin sa hapagkainan kanina

Will I leave? Will I fight? Will I… give up? The thought itself is terrifying. The uncertainty is a suffocating blanket. I feel lost, adrift in a sea of despair. I'm lost, completely and utterly lost.  Lost and alone.

Honestly, I miss her so much.

Sobrang miss ko na siya.

I miss those tight hugs from behind, the ones that made me feel safe, protected, loved.

The feeling of her body pressed against mine, her warmth seeping into my very bones. The memory is a bittersweet torment. A constant reminder of what I’ve lost. A constant reminder of what we had.  A constant reminder of our love.

Her warm, soft lips… I can still feel the ghost of her kisses on my skin, a phantom touch that sends shivers down my spine. A cruel reminder of what I’ve lost. The memory is a knife twisting in my gut. A constant, agonizing reminder of what we had. A painful reminder of what is now lost.

Mga pamewang niya saakin kapag pinagbabawalan niya akong manigarilyo   kase mahilig akong manigarilyo at kahit tinatapon niya yung mga nakikita niyang sigarilyo sa pocket ko meron parin nakasilid sa kotse ko..