"Pretty Little Promise's"

Chapter 42 distant

Alice's POV:

That camping trip was a blur, a distant memory now. Back in the office, it was works as usual. But my heart, it was still stuck on Risa.

And when it comes sa pagsuyo ko sakanya Nothing had changed in my relentless pursuit of her.  I mean, what would I do if she suddenly reciprocated? I'd be caught off guard, right?  But she's been giving me the cold shoulder, ignoring my visits to her office. What gives? Why the silent treatment? Hindi na niya ba ako kayang mahalin?

Hindi ko naman siya mapipilit na mahalin Akong muli, love takes time, right? But her secretary, she's always around, maybe she's the one Risa will choose in the end...

Risa has changed so much. Parang ibang tao na ang kaharap ko , I don't know what I did to deserve this, why she can't look at me the same way , I know Yung mga paningin na yon nasa iba na , But I know what she's been through, that's why I'm trying to be there for her  lagi naman pero tinutulak  niya ako pabalik

she'll love me again, but first, she'll make me suffer for it

The news broke a few days ago. Risa admitted her eyesight had returned, but it was a long time ago. Does that mean na babalik na din paningin niya sakin?  Nah, just kidding. I'm not expecting anything like that hindi ako nagmamadali

I shower her with gifts: bouquets, gourmet food, sparkling necklaces, delicate bracelets, cuddly stuffed toys, even more jewelry. But they all end up gathering dust on her desk kahit ano pang ibigay ko always isinasantabi Niya

I'm a hopeless romantic, always seeking her attention.  I haven't grown out of my teenage ways, still begging for her affection For real  .

Attention mo lang Risa sapat na para mabuhay ako

One evening, she invited me to a restaurant, a fancy dinner date. I thought it was finally happening, that she'd finally admit her feelings. But she crushed my hopes. "I can't love  you anymore, kahit ano pang sabihin mo Hindi tayo pwede" her voice flat and emotionless.

My world crumbled. I cried, I couldn't believe it. All my efforts, all my sacrifices, all for nothing? She doesn't want to love anymore?

I tried to convince her Naman eh to reason with her, but she pushed me away kahit Anong gawin ko Wala , I was hurting, but she didn't seem to care. I remember when we were teenagers, we made a promise in the park, our favorite hangout spot. She held my face, her fingers tracing my cheek, and said, "If , you find someone else na and  if you fall in love with someone else love  I'll promise to try to love you again, even if may mahal ka ng iba , even if may Asawa ka na mamahalin parin kita I'll still love you." (Hiyyie author to think it wala yan sa Nostalgic pero isipin niyo nalang sinabi niya Yan )

But her words, "If you find someone else?"  It was like she was worried  ,but she's the only one I've ever loved ni minsan hindi siya nawala sa isipan ko.

My heart won't let me let her go, not even though it hurts. I love her that much, I'd ignore everyone else for her.

Days turned into months, we barely crossed paths. I felt nothing, just a hollow ache in my chest kahit makita ko man siya sa kahit Anong lugar at mag kruz ng landas namin parang hangin lang ,  Maybe she found someone who could give her the happiness I couldn't. I know I'm not enough for her. I work too much, I can't give her the time she deserves, even though I try , Yes I try Naman pero hindi sapat.

Days before Ghosting :

I  stood outside Risa's office, a bouquet of Tulips in hand.  I  took a deep breath and knocked on the door.

"Come in , bukas ang pinto" Risa's voice was cool, almost emotionless.

I  entered, a smile faltering slightly. Risa was sitting at her desk, her back to me, looking at a document.

"Risa, I..." I started, but Risa cut me  off I love you sana

"Alice, I appreciate the flowers, but I'm busy right now," Risa said, her voice still flat.

"But I just wanted to talk, sobra na akong nasasabik Sayo " I  pleaded, my  voice trembling slightly. "I miss you so much "

Risa turned around, her eyes meeting  me "I know you do, Alice," she said, her voice softer now, but still distant. "But I need some space."

"But why? What did I do? Diba Sabi mo May chance pa" I asked, my  voice breaking. "I love you, Risa. I always have."

Risa sighed, her eyes filled with a sadness that I  couldn't understand. "It's not you, Alice. It's me. I'm not ready for love right now."

My  heart sank. I  felt tears welling up in my  eyes. "But you promised," I  whispered, a voice barely audible. "You promised you'd try to love me again."

Risa looked away, her face hidden in her hands. "I know," she said, her voice choked with emotion. "But I can't. I'm not strong enough."

I stood there, speechless, heart shattered. I  slowly turned and walked out of the office, leaving the tulips behind.
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Bumaba ako sa position sa pagiging gobernador bagsak sa Alkalde ilang taon na din akong Governor kaya  This Campaign na naganap last month I run as A Mayor Kase Hindi Na Pwedeng Governor tapos na ako .....

All I can do Now is panatilihing maayos Ang Bayan Ko ...
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