Goodbye. {Shawn Mendes Fanfic}

Facetiming Shawn

~A few days later~

I plopped down on my bed and looked up at the ceiling. This is going to be a change for me but its worth trying, this might be a good change. I might make a few new friends and maybe this time I won't be bullied. I slightly smiled to myself thinking I might actually be truly happy again.

My phone lit up from a facetime call from Shawn. I accepted the call and saw his face appear on the screen. "Shawn." I smiled although he couldn't see my face since the camera was facing the ceiling. "Let me see your beautiful face." Shawn wined. "No. I look a mess." I say and Shawn continued to beg. I was wearing grey sweatpants and white crop top, my hair was in a messy bun and I didn't have makeup on since I was sweating. I turned the AC on and sighed before showing Shawn my face. "Yay!" Shawn exclaimed and I laughed. "You look beautiful." Shawn says and I roll my eyes. "I do not." I say covering my face since I was blushing. "Well you're beautiful to me." He says and I thank him.

"Let me see your room." Shawn says and I showed him the semi messy room. There were empty boxes in the corner of the room and a few extra things on the floor that I took out of the boxes but were too lazy to put away, I looked next to the lamp and saw my mom's favorite Louis Vuitton bag. I should've put that in my closet.

My parents funeral was about a week ago it was hard for me and Shawn knew that, that's why he was by my side the entire time. The funeral was closed casket due to the horrible condition the body's were in. I sighed at the thought of my parents. A tear slid down my face and I placed the phone on my bed facing the ceiling as more tears fell. I wiped away the tears and tried to stop. I don't feel welcomed here at my Aunt and uncle's, their kids are only four and five but they give me these evil looks anytime I walk by them.

"Baby what's wrong?" He asked. "Nothing I'm fine." I say once I stop crying. I wiped the tears away and picked the phone up giving him a weak smile. "I know it's hard but stay strong for me. I'll see you soon." He smiles at me. "Are you still coming to visit this weekend?" I ask and Shawn sighed. "I wish I could but I have a hockey practice Saturday and a game Sunday." He says and I simply nod. "You know I want to be there for you but I can't this weekend. I promise I will next weekend." He says and I just nod. I'm nervous about starting this new school with a bunch of kids that I don't know, I was really hoping that Shawn could be here Sunday so I'm not panicking about the new school situation. "Are you mad at me?" He asks and I shake my head no. "Why would I be mad? You have a hockey game, I understand." I say and he smiled at me through the phone.

We just sat there looking at each other not saying a word. "I really wish I could kiss those soft sweet lips of your's." Shawn says and I giggle. "Stop!" I laugh and he smiled at me. "I wish I was there with you. I miss you so much already." Shawn says after a few moments of silence. "I miss you more." I say looking at the purple blanket that was on my bed. If I looked at Shawn I know I would break down in tears. "I'm so use to you being right next to me at night holding me in your arms and telling me that everything is going to be okay." I say while looking down and playing with the edge of the blanket.

"I know you miss me and I miss you more. Count down the days until your back in my arms, that way you'll have something to look forward to in a week and a half." Shawn says and I nod. "Can you sing me to sleep?" I ask since it was 10:30 at night. "Okay. What songs do you want me to sing?" He asked.

"Can you sing me three songs?" I ask and he smiles. "Anything for you." He says placing his phone on his desk and grabbing his guitar. Shawn has been playing guitar a lot lately and he's amazing at it, he's also a very talented singer. I don't know why he doesn't show off his talent. "Can you sing Photograph, Kiss me and Thinking out loud?" I ask and he smiles. "I somehow knew you wanted me to sing those songs." He says and I smile.

I grab the Polaroid photo that Shawn and I took a while back. I had the picture where Shawn and I were kissing and Shawn has one where we both made monkey faces while looking at each other. We had Aaliyah take the pictures, we all took so many polaroids that day. I smiled at the happy memories we all had together.

Shawn began to strum his guitar before starting to sing.

"We keep this love in a photograph
We made these memories for ourselves
Where our eyes are never closing
Hearts are never broken
Times forever frozen still
So you can keep me
Inside the pocket
Of your ripped jeans
Holdin' me closer
'Til our eyes meet
You won't ever be alone
Wait for me to come home"

I continued to look at the Polaroid thinking about how much I missed Shawn.

Once Shawn finished the song he smiled at me and I smiled back. "I love your voice." I accidentally say out loud and Shawn laughs but turns a bright shade of red. He looks like a red apple. "I'm going to sing kiss me now." He says and I smile at his embarrassment. He's so cute.

He began to strum his guitar once again and I smile as he began to sing.

"I've been feeling everything
From hate to love
From love to lust
From lust to truth
I guess that's how I know you
So I hold you close to help you give it up
So kiss me like you wanna be loved"

I watched as Shawn sang his heart out in this song. He neck vein was even popping out. At the end of the song he looked up at me and smiled. "We both know you're not the best singer but can you sing Thinking Out Loud with me?" He asked and I laughed. "Sure." I say and he begins to play his guitar once again.

"Darling, I will be loving you 'til we're 70
And, baby, my heart could still fall as hard at 23
And I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe just the touch of a hand
Well, me - I fall in love with you every single day
And I just wanna tell you I am
So honey now
Take me into your loving arms
Kiss me under the light of a thousand stars
Place your head on my beating heart
I'm thinking out loud
Maybe we found love right where we are" Shawn and I both sang together pouring our hearts and souls into this one very song.

At the end of the song both Shawn and I smiled at each other. "Did you get better at singing in the four days that you've been gone?" Shawn asked and I laughed. "No seriously because you weren't that bad." Shawn says and I playfully roll my eyes. "I'm still horrible." I say and he laughs. Soon my door opens revealing my uncle.

"Can you shut up with your horrible singing there are other people in this house and we're trying to sleep." He says angrily and I apologize for waking him up. I didn't think I was singing that loud. He slams the door and I turn my head back to Shawn who was trying so hard not to laugh. "Just laugh, meanie." I say and he started dying of laughter.

After he finished laughing he smiled at me. "It's an hour past my bed time." Shawn says and I laugh. It was 11:00 and Shawn loves to go to sleep at 10:00 for some reason. Sleep is very important to him. "Goodnight baby. I love you so Freaking much!" He says and I smile. "I love you more." I say and he smiles back.

"Goodnight Shawn." I say blowing him a kiss through the phone. "Goodnight Santana." Shawn says 'catching the kiss' before blowing a kiss to me. I 'caught' the kiss and smiled before hanging up.

I plugged my phone and began to play Ed Sheeran. I made sure the music would turn off after an hour before turning off the lights and crawling into bed.

I eventually fell asleep listening to I See Fire.

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