Goodbye. {Shawn Mendes Fanfic}

Not worth your time

A few weeks passed, Me and Shawn's relationship was going great. We went on small cliche dates after school and he somehow managed to distract the guys from noticing me in the halls. Kids still laughed at me in the hallways but other than that I didn't really have any problems until now.

I was in the girls bathroom when Nash's girlfriend Nevaeda and her group of friends walked in. I tried to leave but she stopped me. "I know about you and Shawn." She says with an evil smirk. "What about us?" I ask hoping she doesn't know exactly.

"There's a lot if things I know like, you've been staying at his house for almost two weeks." She says and I roll my eyes. I've been staying back and forth between my house and his for the past month. My parents think that I need to spend time with actual people since they're never home and Mrs.Mendes agreed, she thinks of me as a second daughter. "I know you and Shawn are dating that's why he's distracting the guys whenever he sees you. Plus I saw you two the other day at the beach." She says and I say nothing in return.

"I'm just wondering why he would date a suicidal freak. You're a piece of trash compared to the rest of us." She laughs her friends laughing along with her. "We're not dating." I say and she rolls her eyes pulling out her new iPhone 6 from her designer bag. She taps her screen a few times before handing me the phone. "Swipe left." She says and I look at all the pictures she took all of Shawn and I at the beach three days ago.

There was pictures of us holding hands, kissing, joking around in the water, playing volleyball and him giving me a piggy back ride.

She took her phone back and laughed at me. "This pictures can ruin both you and Shawn. I wouldn't want to do that to Shawn, but then again you both deserve what happens to you. After all he did betray his best friends and you well you're a suicidal slut who doesn't deserve to live." She says and I hold back my tears.

Be strong for Shawn.

"Don't do this to Shawn. He doesn't deserve it, this is all my fault." I finally say. "If you really think any of us is going to stay quiet about this, you're funny." She says referring to the girls behind her. "If I was you I'd break up with Shawn and never speak to him again." Nevaeda walked out the bathroom with her group of friends.

What do I do? Shawn is my evening and my only source of happiness breaking up with him would not only hurt him but it would destroy me. I sighed before pulling out my phone to text Shawn.

Santana: Shawn, we need to talk.

Seconds later Shawn replied.

Bae: What do we need to talk about????

Santana: Are you free after school?

Bae: Not really I was going to hang out with the guys after school but I can cancel

Santana: No don't cancel just come to my house when you're done hanging out

Bae: You're not staying over tonight?

Santana: I'm going home right now I don't think I can handle staying in school for the rest of the day

Bae: Santana what's wrong please tell me

Santana: I'm fine Shawn I just have some things on my mind and I kinda want to speak to you in person.

Bae: We're not breaking up are we???

I hope not.
I don't want to break up with Shawn but at the same time I don't want to be the one to ruin all of his friendships. Shawn's happiness means more to me than my own happiness. Yeah I've never been happier than I am right now but I rather be depressed and broken than have Shawn go through all the bullying I've gone through.

I didn't answer, I didn't know what to type.

Bae: You can't be fucking serious! Santana I've been here for you this past month when no one else was, I've been trying so hard to protect you from the guys and you're going to end what we have for what reason? I haven't given you a reason to be mad at me. I've skipped school just to be with you, I've taken you on multiple road trips, we've had so many corny dates that we both seem to love so much. I told you I loved you. Who else told you they loved you and actually meant it? Nobody! Last night when we were out on the roof what did you tell me? You told me "nobody has ever told me they loved me not even my own parents, you're actually the first person who has." When you said that my heart broke. I've never cared for someone as much as I care for you and I mean that. Just know when I said I love you I meant it. I meant everything I said to you, not one thing was a lie.

As I read the long text Shawn sent me I began to cry. I didn't want to break up, I wanted to simply talk to him and see if there was something we could do to stay together. I love being with Shawn and spending time together. I love those random road trips he would take me on because I wasn't having the best day. I loved when he planned those small corny dates that we both love, it made me feel like I was in a sappy romance movie when they do all those cliche coupley things.

Santana: I don't want to break up Shawn. I just need to talk to you, we might need to break up or pretend to be broken up but I need to talk to you

I typed as a few tears ran down my face. It took Shawn a few minutes to respond but he did.

Bae: Where are you now?

Santana: The girls bathroom

Bae: Are you going to your house now?

Santana: Yeah

Bae: Okay I'll meet you there

I decided to start walking home. It wasn't that far of a walk so I was there within fifteen minutes. Once I got home I sat on the couch and decided to watch a movie on Netflix.

After watching 20 minutes of Click there was a knock on the door. I opened the door and there stood the tall 16 year old boy. I opened the door wider allowing him to enter. "You have five minutes. I told the guys I was going to pick up the pizza we ordered." He said crossing his arms over his chest like he didn't want to talk to me.

"Nevaeda has pictures of us at the beach from the other day she's threatening to tell the guys. She said we have to break up in order for her not to show the guys." I say and Shawn still doesn't look interested. "We can easily say it wasn't us." He says acting like he doesn't care. "You can clearly see our faces in the picture." I say while rolling my eyes. I have no clue why Shawn is acting the way he's acting, yeah we had that argument earlier but he can still act like he actually gives a shit about our relationship.

"So what are we going to do? Are we still going to be a couple or are we going to break up?" He asks looking at the time on his watch. He's acting like I'm not worth his time and the sad part is I know I'm not worth his time. I've wasted so much of his time already and I've probably been so clingy.

"The choice is yours. I have nothing to loose, you have everything to loose." I say and he sighs. "I'll text you. Are you going to be okay by yourself?" He asks and I nod he gives me a small peck on the cheek before walking out the door without saying another word.

I'm not worth his time. I'm not worth anyone's time. Most times I don't even think, but I don't mind. That's how it's always been, and that's how it's gonna be.