My Life: Day by Day

April 18, 2013

Dear Diary,

This feels like I'm writing a letter or something XD Like, 'Diary' is an actual person. I wonder if there's somebody up there, or out there, that has the job of reading people's diaries? One, that would be creepy. Two, that's an invasion of privacy! Three, I want that job. Because I think it would be cool to look at what other people think. Maybe I'll read one of my friend's diaries.

I think I would like to read Magikarp's diary. Yes, I know that's a Pokemon, but it's my nickname for her because it's her favorite Pokemon, because she says "If anybody hurts me then I'll evolve and become all badass and beat them up!" XD She always makes me laugh. Since you don't know her Diary, she's one of my best friends this year. Even though I've only known her for.....8 months? I believe that I can already call her my best friend. She is the funniest person I have ever met. She never fails in making me laugh. She's also hungry all the time XD And she's so lazy! She and I are like twins! We're even asian! Twinnies! :)

I have another best friend, I call her Babe. She's the sweetest, and quirkiest girl ever. We pretend to flirt all the time, hence my nickname for her, and we always end up laughing. She's super smart! She knows all the big words that I can't even pronounce, and she'll use them on a daily basis. It's really weird, but I still love her :) She is so weird though, maybe even weirder than Sarah. But I absolutely love how weird she is! You probably think I'm exageratting, so let me give you an example.  She is obsessed with pastrami. Yeah, I don't know why XD She can relate anything to pastrami! Like, anything! I think I remember talking about math one time, and we somehow ended up talking about pastrami! But then again, we're just weird like that.

And Diary, yes I know this is pathetic, but they're pretty much the only real friends I have. I mean, sure I have all those girls I talk to in school, and I can have fun with them. But tell them dark secrets? Want to be with them almost 24/7? No, not them. I only have 2 best friends. Maybe that's 2 more than some people, but to me that seems pathetic. Plus, I have to be honest. I do have one more friend....and I absolutely love her <3 But no homo XD I met her in 7th grade, and she's been my best friend since. Her name is Deedee. But I don't like to talk about her much.....she moved away at the end of 8th grade, and I miss her so much. I miss her everyday, and I think about her almost that much. I try to call her and email all the time but my stupid ass life is too busy to do that. I wish I could send telepathic messages, just to tell her everyday that I miss her :'( I think the last time I got to talk to her was.....last week. That seems like forever to me. I miss her so much. She might be coming over this summer for a while! :D But a small part of me doesn't want to see her....because I know when she leaves, I'll just end up crying.

So yeah, my 3 friends. Us against the world. I'm getting really depressed XD Then again, I'm always depressed. But that's another story, for another time..............

Diary, do you like my friends? I'll probably end up talking about others, but these 3 were on my minds today. Deedee is always on my mind. and the other two........I was thinking about them, because of all my problems.

I always sit with them at lunch, and we always have a good time. But today I skipped lunch and didn't eat with my friends. And I skipped breakfast too. In fact, the only thing I ate today was a spoon of Nutella (because who can resist Nutella?!) and a sandwich that my mom made me for dinner. That honestly is a TINY meal for me, considering how much I usually eat. I really missed my friends, but I couldn't go into the cafeteria. Because I know if I did, they would question why I wasn't eating, and end up buying me food. And then I would feel guilty because they bought it, and they hate to waste money. Just shows how much they care <3

But I can't eat food. I'm trying not to eat.

I'm trying to turn myself into an anorexic.

Yeah, I know. I've read all of the websites and facts. Anorexia is like a disease, you can't just turn yourself anorexic! Well, I don't believe that. Nobody just wakes up one day and is like, I'm just not going to eat food! It's a psychological thing, where if people feel bad about how they look, then they use drastic measures to try and fix them.