Infinite || n.h

Chapter 40

"No matter what anyone tells you or says to you, never forget that you're special and capable of so many great things. I will always be here for you no matter what! I believe in you kiddo! And I know that you are going to do great things someday! You're the strongest person I've ever met!" Dianna took my hand and gave me a hug.

"I promise that I won't ever let you down or disappoint you, mom!" I said as I gave my new mom a kiss on the cheek.

"I love you kiddo!"

"I love you too mom!"

I suddenly woke up and realized that it was just a dream. I checked the alarm next to me. It was 9:10 a.m. I felt Niall wrap his arm around my waist.

"Are you okay?" Niall asked quietly.

"Yeah....just a dream....more like a memory," I said keeping my head turned away from Niall.

Niall gave me a kiss on the cheek and got out of bed to go and check on Hope. I just laid there. Thinking.

After about a few minutes, I got up to go and get ready for Dianna's funeral today. I really wasn't looking forward to it. This is probably one of the hardest things to do, EVER. Attending the funeral of the person who raised you to be the person you are today.

I wore a black short sleeved dress with a sleek mock neck and black fit pointed high heels. My hair was curled and placed to the side of either shoulder.

Niall wore his  black dress shirt and suit pants. While Hope wore a formal black dress and her little black flats. Her hair was in a bun since she had a lot of long hair already.

"Are you ready to go?" Niall asked.

I kept my eyes starring at the ground and nodded in response. I was trying really hard not to cry. This is really hard for me. All I really want is to wake up and hope that this is all just a dream.

When we finally arrived to the funeral, there were people already here.

"I don't want to go," I spoke up as Niall parked the car.

"What do you mean? This is your mothers funeral," Niall furrowed his eyebrows.

"I'm sorry Niall. I just don't think I can do this."

I grabbed a tissue from my purse and tried to stop myself from breaking out in tears. I didn't want to ruin my makeup and I really didn't want anyone to see me like this.

"Honey, I know you can do this. I know that this is hard and I hate seeing you like this. But now is the time where you have to face your fear and put on a strong face for your mother," Niall interwind his fingers with mine.

I kept my head down. I then looked outside the window at all the people that showed up to Dianna's funeral.

"You know, it's crazy....how you get mistreated your whole life and get left to die and be alone and suddenly you meet one person that changes you. Your attitude. Your style. Your image. Your faith......and in an instant once you've accomplished that, the person who helped you through tough times gets taken away from you. I wouldn't be in this car right now with you or Hope if it wasn't for Dianna. I would've never imagined myself in this position after the way I treated her when I first met her. She always believed that everyone has good in them. You just have to find it at it's own pace. And that's exactly what she did with me. One act of kindness can change everything. But to have someone who took care of you, gave you a home, food, and love, taken away forever is something that can probably change you forever and be a harder experience than any other....." At this rate, I was sobbing in tears.