Infinite || n.h

Chapter 45

Niall was going to be at the studio recording a few new songs with the boys for a couple of hours today.

"Are you sure, NeeNee? I think I should just call and reschedule. I don't want to leave you here to watch two babies and a toddler by yourself," Niall kept insisting on staying but I wouldn't let him.

"Niall, it's fine. It's just for about 2-3 hours. I'll be okay." I kissed his cheek.

Niall sighed. "I'll try to be back as soon as possible."

"I love you."

"I love you too."

Niall gave me a sweet kiss on the lips and walked out the door.

It's just a couple of hours. I'm sure I'll be fine. The twins are asleep and Hope already ate and has been calmly watching tv and playing with her dolls in her playroom.

I sat on the couch with my laptop on my lap. The house is calm and so are the kids, so I decided to look at some of my pics from a photo shoot I did when I was pregnant.

One of the most beautiful things in life is a mother carrying their baby inside of her. It's a blessing.

I was looking through the photos to see which ones I was going to keep, when I heard a sudden whimper coming from the baby monitor. I put my laptop on the coffee table and got up to go upstairs to the nursery.

When I entered the nursery I saw Ciar was sleeping. But Cian was fully awake. I nodded my head and playfully rolled my eyes.

"Well, look who woke up. C'mon, you can be with mommy while your sister is still sleeping."

I picked up Cian from his crib and gave him his pacifier. It's so adorable how chubby Cian is since he eats just like his father. But he's just a baby, it's completely normal. He's gotten quite a bit heavier though.

I went into the bedroom that Niall and I shared and sat on the sofa. As I was carrying Cian while he was on my lap, I looked through my iPad while it was sat on the table.

My back began to hurt so I shut off my laptop and stood up.

I rocked Cian in my arms. He is so cute with his grey onesie on. His adorable hazel eyes just starring at me while he sucks on his pacifier. I can hear him breathing softly and calm. His little golden brown locks of hair looking as if they want to form a little Mohawk.

He looks exactly like Niall, no doubt about it. I still can't believe that this little human being was inside me for nine months and that Niall and I made him together.

He's only been in this world for 5 weeks. He's just an innocent little baby. It's always been a mystery to me how some people don't love their kids and abandon them. I can't imagine someone being as cruel as to leave their baby abandoned without a care in the world. I don't think I'd ever be able to do that to my own children.

I opened the balcony doors to let in some fresh air. I laid in bed with one arm holding Cian and my other hand going through my emails on my phone.

Cian began to whimper a little bit so I grabbed his bottle and began to feed it to him. He kicked his legs as he drank his warm milk. I giggled. He was just too cute.

I went to check on Ciar who was still passed out. She loves to sleep. She inhales and exhales soft and calm. I heard Hope come into the nursery. I gestured her to be quiet.

She put her finger over her mouth and nose, "Shhhh!" Hope shushed loudly.

I guided her outside the nursery and into her mom and dad's room.