Infinite || n.h

Chapter 36

It's been 3 weeks since we got back from LA. Hope kept begging and crying to not come back to London but I promised her we would go back as often as we could.

Today was just a normal typical lazy day. Hope has been so restless lately though. She cries most of the time and whines A LOT.

Niall and I just came to the senses that maybe we are spoiling her a bit too much. Or maybe she has just been this way because of all the attention social media gives her.

"Hey love. I just put Hope down for her nap. We can finally have some alone time," Niall smirked as he leaned over to kiss me on the couch.

I giggled and kissed him back. Only for a moment or two.

"What are we gonna do about her behavior?" I asked.

"I honestly don't even know. I don't get why she's been acting like this lately."

"Do you think it's just because we are probably the worse parents ever?"

I looked down at my hands on my lap. Niall lifted my chin up with his finger.

"Don't say that. We are great parents. And you are a wonderful mother. Maybe we just spoil Hope a bit much. She's almost going to be 2 years old. She's probably just testing us."

I giggled and kissed Niall on the lips. I suddenly began to feel nauseous. Then a quickly realized that I was gonna throw up.

I broke our kiss and ran straight to the bathroom. I puked out everything inside me into the toilet.

I haven't felt the best lately. I think I'm getting the stomach flu. Niall walked in after I flushed the toilet and closed it. I brushed my teeth and sat on the seat holding my head.

"NeeNee? Are you alright?" Niall asked as he squatted down to look straight at me.

"Yeah, I'm fine. I think I'm getting the stomach flu though. Haven't been feeling well."

"I'll go make you some tea. Just go and lay on the couch and we can watch a movie if you like."

I smiled at him as he went to go and make some tea. I covered my mouth with my hand and closed my eyes just thinking about Hope again.

I got up and opened one of the cabinets to get some pills to take for my headache. But something caught my eye.

I saw a pregnancy test that I hadn't opened from when I was trying to get pregnant with Hope. Then next to it I saw some tampons. This left me thinking about a week ago.

Niall and I did have sex but we used protection. But the night we had sex in LA.....I don't think we did.

My heart began to race. Was I pregnant? No. I can't be. Please. I can not be pregnant. Niall and I already have a lot on our hands with Hope.

Another baby? That is just going to be too hard. My period was late and I have been sick from my stomach lately. This is really not such a great time to have another kid.

I had to get this feeling off my chest. I opened the pregnancy test and followed the instructions.

I waited for about 5 minutes until the timer finally went off. I was praying and hoping that I wasn't pregnant. I began to breathe heavily as I saw the results. I kept looking at the results to make sure if I was reading it right or not.

I ran my hand through my hair and kept my other hand on my hips. I couldn't believe it. This cannot be happening. Not to me. '+ positive' which means I'm pregnant.

Fuck. Why? How can I be so stupid. I can't have another baby right now. It's too much. As much as I want our family to expand. It's still too early.

I walked out of the bathroom silent. I saw Niall on the couch about to start the movie we were gonna watch.

I got in front of Niall, blocking his view of our tv on the wall.

"Baby....errrr....you're blocking the television...." Niall said shyly.

"Niall....I have to tell you something. We need to talk," I started.

"Sure darling. Is everything okay? What's wrong?" Niall asked.

I sat on Niall's lap with my head on his shoulder.

"I'm pregnant...." I whispered with a not so happy tone.

"What? NeeNee this is exciting!" Niall lifted me up on his lap.

My eyes were red and puffy. My lips were swollen and filled with sadness.

"What's wrong?" Niall asked.

"Niall, we aren't ready. It's too early. I really think it's a bad time. I don't think we are capable of raising two kids right now."

"I know you aren't ready. But I am. I am going to be here with you for as long as you need me. This is suppose to be exciting not depressing. You know how much Hope has been wanting a younger sibling lately. Maybe this is why she's been acting up."

I never thought about that. Hope has been so upset lately. Maybe it was because I kept refusing to give her a little brother or sister.

"Maybe I have been a little selfish. I'm just scared. I'm scared that I won't be able to handle more than one kid. I know how much Hope has been begging us. And I'm proud to say that her wish is going to come true." I smiled while still having some tears in my eyes.

"Don't worry darling, I'll be here for you. Forever. I love you," Niall said.

"I love you too."

I leaned down to kiss Niall. I couldn't believe it. I'm going to become a mother again. I have a little baby inside me. And I couldn't be more blessed than I already am.

Niall and I wanted to wait until Hope woke up before we could tell her about the big news. It wasn't long til after Niall and I finished watching the movie 'Anchorman 2' that Hope finally woke up.

Niall and I heard her calling our names through the baby monitor.

"Mommy Daddy!" She cried.

Niall and I went upstairs to her room.

"Hey Hope you're awake!" Niall said.

"How did you sleep, baby?" I asked.

"I want to go to playroom!" Hope demanded.

"Okay. But can you say it nicely please," I said calmly.

"Now mommy!" She began to cry.

Niall and I looked at each other as Niall carried her into her playroom which was the room down the hall.

Once we took her inside. We decided to sit on the couch with Hope on Niall's lap.

"Hope mommy and daddy want to talk to you," Niall began.

"Honey, why are you being mean to mommy and daddy?" I asked.

"Mommy and daddy don't want other baby!" She crossed her arms.

"Well guess what?" Niall began. "You're going to be a big sister! Mommy is going to have a baby!" Niall said as Hopes face lit up.

"Mommy have baby!!" Hope smiled as she looked at me.

"Yeah. Mommy has the baby right here," I pointed to my stomach.

Hope put her small hand on my belly and giggled.

"I big sister! Boy or girl momma?" She asked.

"We don't know yet. It's still too small." I said.

Hope clapped her hands and giggled. I missed seeing her smile like that.

The rest of the day we just celebrated as a family. Our lives were just about to get better.

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A/N:

Sorry for the short chapter. I was really excited to release this big news in NeeNee and Niall's lives. Sorry if it's horrible. I worked really hard on it. Anyways I hope you love it. I'll keep updating as much as I can. Love you! :)