Infinite || n.h

Chapter 3

Hey guys! Thanks so much for reding my book! Sorry if there's any spelling errors. It's unedited! Well okay! Hope you enjoy this chapter!

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I couldn't believe it. I didn't know what to feel or how to feel.

I'm pregnant.

That's all that I couldn't think of.

"I'm pregnant..." I said, my voice shaking.

Niall looked at me surprised as well.

"Well don't worry love, I'll be here with you every step of the way because I love you." Niall said while hugging me.

"What would the media think of us? What if this affects you and the boys? What about me? I'll have to cancel my tour. I don't want to disappoint my fans." I said upset.

"Woah! NeeNee, calm down. Well figure out a way. We always do. Everything is going to be alright."

I actually didn't know how to feel. I felt kind of blessed and happy that I was going to be a mom. But I also felt like I was going to make my life harder for myself and my fiancé. I would never even think about hurting people. I don't want to let my fans down or put my fiancé and his band in any uncomfortable position with their fans either.

3 weeks have past by and Niall actually has been the most incredible fiancé ever. He tries to make me as comfortable as he can and makes me food now and then, and even watches chick flicks with me. I was really enjoying my time off. I decided to go see a doctor since I don't know anything about pregnancy or mother care.

When we arrived at the doctors office. We had told my doctor, Levy, about the pregnancy. But then she said something that kind of gave me chills.

"You can't always trust pregnancy test, and I'm glad you came today. I'll just have the nurse collect a few blood samples and we'll see if your pregnant or not, if that's okay."

"Sure, that's okay." I said unsure if I was okay with it or not.

Me and Niall waited inside our private room for about half an hour or so. We just talked about what if I am pregnant and what would the gender be and how we would spoil our baby.

Then...my doctor came back in.

"Okay Miss NeeNee, the results are in. And I'm so sorry. It turns out you actually were pregnant but you've lost your baby." Dr. Levy said.

I felt as if a knife went through my heart. I felt tears stream down my face. Dr. Levy left and gave me and Niall a moment alone.

"Hey NeeNee, it's okay. I know you were really starting to like the idea of having a baby. Maybe it was just too soon." Niall said hugging me.

I dug my head into his chest, trying to hide my face.

I began to sob.

"Honestly I really did want a baby. I don't care about media anymore. I don't care about anything else. That was my baby and I lost it." I said tugging onto Niall's shirt.

"I'm so sorry babe. I wish I could make this better, I really do." he said while starting to get a bit emotional as well.

1 month went by, I didn't eat or go out. My fans began to get worried. But in all honesty I didn't care. I was too depressed. Niall would always try to make me feel better and get me to eat but I didn't want to.

Management would always call me. But I never answered. I was on vacation, so why go and give myself more work and record new songs when I have free time. I just decided to turn off my phone. I didn't tweet anything. I didn't Instagram anything. I didn't make any announcements. Nothing.