She's Just a Human | Transformers

39: The Hardest Thing

{Chapter Under Edition} ~Dream Catcher  

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I sit inside Bee, with the seatbelt on, hugging my legs close to my chest, wishing time could stop for at least one day.

My sight goes up and my look gets dark as I see the cons walking outside.
One of them seems to feel my stare.
He looks at me, and this time, I don't even flinch when his red optics cling to my eyes.

~ 1 day earlier ~

"We're leaving planet Earth"

I feel my blood leave my face as chills run all they way down my spine, making me tremble for a moment.

Ironhide immediately starts complaining, shouting out his astonishment and anger.
Jazz steps back in surprise and then joins the black bot in his burst out, the same as Sideswipe and Dino, all of them shouting at the same time.

But Optimus doesn't seem to be paying attention to them, his optics laid on me, filled with nothing but sadness.

"Y-you're... What?" I manage to say something.
He closes his optics and clenches his fists.
"But... I..." I stutter, but not a sentence comes out of my mouth. I look down as that familiar feeling of emptiness starts growing slowly inside of me, making me feel cold, inside and out.

I turn around to face Bee, the only one who hasn't said a thing, and find him staring at nothing, his optics flickering, his frame seems to have been drained of energy, giving him an aspect I had never seen before on him.
He seems Broken.

Suddenly, Hide turns around, sees something and walks away, his stomping heard all around the base.

I turn back at Optimus, feeling my eyes starting to get wet, but for some reason, I can't cry at all.

"I'm sorry..." He says. He looks at my now crystal-like eyes and something changes in his optics... He now looks the same way as Bee... "It wasn't my decision..." He looks at something behind me and for a moment his look gets dark. "I'm sorry Cael..." Then he stands. Turns. And walks away.

My hands start shaking as I slowly turn around to see what Optimus was looking at, and I find her. Precisely her. Haddelin.

She's with Ironhide, who's yelling at her, complaining, while she just looks at him with her usual 'ugh' face.

"What about the kid?! Uh?! What about her?! We can't just leave her!" Hide shouts. "We..-!" He looks down and then his gaze meets my eyes.
"We're all she has left..."

That's when a single tear runs down my face.

I slowly walk towards Haddelin, who just shrugs at Hide's words and turns, then she sees me.

"Oh no, don't look at me that way" She rolls her eyes.
I ignore her comment and just go to the point.

"Why?" I ask, looking at her directly into the eye, my voice trembling a little.

"I'm just doing what's best for everyone" she says, looking away.

"Best for everyone?" I frown. She looks at my shaky hands, I try to make them stop, squeezing my fists. "How in the world is this the best for everyone?" I breath heavily but don't raise my voice.

"Look Caelyn, you do not understand, your feelings are blinding you..-"

"Oh please don't" I shake my head. "You do remember what happened last time they 'left' right? You do remember!" Now I raise my voice. "The whole city of Chicago was destroyed! And if it wasn't because of them-" I point at the Autobots. "It would have probably been the whole world!" I bite my lip strongly and continue. "My whole family was killed..."