Fragile Heart

32

"What are you doing here?" Logan asked.
He had on sweatpants so baggy that I could slip in with him and his upper body was pure flesh. His abs were like a magnet, I could almost feeling my hand running down his defined body.
I snapped my eyes away from his core and towards his deep brown eyes that looked like melting chocolate on a warm July day.
"I-I don't know"
The entire speech I had roughly planned on the way over was gone and I couldn't see it anymore when I looked into his eyes. I turned around and started to escape this trap but a hand gripped my arm and pulled me into him. My chest laid against his ribs and there was no room for an ant to crawl through us.
I removed my head from his chest and slowly regained contact in his chocolate orbs. My stomach erupted with different feelings and my head swelled with caution signs but I was taking a risk. His soft fingers pulled my chin upwards and his plump lips slowly dived into mine. At this exact moment, I realized something.
I smiled into our kiss and released to study his expression. His sweet lips curved into a smile and his arm pulled me off his porch and into his presidential sized home.
"Not that I don't want you here, I do.... But why did you come here?" Logan took a seat on the couch and leaned backwards.
Why did I come here?
"I really don't know. My feet were moving before my brain was and I ended up here.. On your doorsteps" I whispered and starred blankly at his pure white walls.
After a couple of minutes of silence I finally built up the courage to say something.
"This was stupid.. I'm stupid!" I jumped off the couch and started walking towards the door.
"Please don't leave" Logan looked over at me with his hypnotic eyes and I was back.
"Why?" I mumbled at the wood flooring.
"Because I like you and I want you to stay.." Logan smiled.
"Alright, I guess"I smiled back.
He liked me? As in the way a owner likes his pet or how augustus liked hazel?
I let it go and relinquished my body into his plush couch. His arm slithered it's way around me and I felt a swarm of goosebumps attack my skin.
"What do you mean you like me?" those words were forming a tornado in my mind.
"I like you. I don't know. You're kind of like Josh's anchor, right? He was floating at seat with all of these girls and YOU were the one to anchor him to you. You made him feel something and that's exactly what you did to me. You have that affect on people"
As soon as he uttered Josh from his lips my heart collapsed and my mind swam in images of our memories.
"So, I know this is abrupt but I was wondering if you'd like to go to prom with me?"
Prom? I was a freshman so prom wasn't on my radar, the entire concept of prom made me feel queasy. I wasn't one for the idea of dressing up and feeling like a princess for one night because once you wake up you're back to cleaning the cinder blocks.
"Maya?" He lost me in thought and I finally met his eyes.
"Sure" I spoke flatly and unsure of myself but instantly his face formed a persuading smile.
I wonder if Josh is going to prom? And if so.. With who? I wiped away those thoughts that cut into my mind and scarred.
"Yeah?" He reconfirmed.
"Yeah" I put on an artificial smile and he dove for a real kiss.
Our lips crashed and we were in perfect harmony, but he didn't make me feel the way Josh did.
"I should go!" I picked myself off his couch and zoomed towards his door before he could argue with me to stay.
"Alright, I'll drive you?"
"Uh.. I'm fine it's nice out!"
I ran out the door and strutted down towards my house with questions sizzling in my brain. I had so many feelings but I couldn't identify which were the right ones. As I was crossing a street, I saw Josh's car and I instantly pulled over my hood so he wouldn't recognize me but he swerved in my direction.
"Get in" Josh hollered.
I could see the girl from the movies hitting him to stop.
"I'm fine!"
"See.. She's fine!" The girl yelled.
"Maya, get in"
I knew he wouldn't drive away, he was relentless and stubborn.
I crawled into the back seat of the car and kept my head pointed out the window.
"So, where are we going on our next date?" She spoke loudly to capture my attention. Josh didn't do second dates, how would he get himself out of this one?
"I don't know" Josh mumbled and gazed at the car mirror, our eyes met and I felt every feeling crash into me.
"How about prom?"
"Yeah, sure whatever" Josh added.
"Sweet are you going to get me one of those flower things.. Hmm what are they called? The swervages!"
I chucked to myself and she instantly turned around, her eyes were like a bottomless eternity of black.
"What are you laughing at?" She put her nose in the air and arched her brows.
"It's a corsage... The things you were talking about with the flowers on your wrist.. It's a corsage"
Josh released a small laugh and my stomach filled with butterflies. I could listen to his laugh all day.
She whipped around, crossed her arms, and sighed like an overly dramatic Disney actress.
We finally pulled into her driveway and I couldn't wait for her to get out.
She leaned over and smashed her lips into Josh's. I felt that same burning I felt at the movies, my heart was shriveling up so I finally tuned away and closed my eyes to keep in any tears.
She got out after an hour of pushing her toung down his throat and we remained silent.
"I don't even like prom" he mumbled.
"Me either" I spoke up.
"You know I actually kind of wanted to go which sounds crazy but I wanted to go with you. With anyone else it sounds like a cheesy night filled with high expectations but with you I could kind of see the magic and excitement everyone is talking about".
I felt the heat rise to my cheeks and I knew I looked like a tomato.
"You're so cute when you blush"
Stop doing this to me, I hit his arm playfully and leaned back.
"You're lucky you don't have to go to prom for another couple of years" Josh tugged at his hair with one hand and remained his other firmly grasped on the wheel.
"I-I am going to prom this year" I whispered.
"With who?" His voice had an edge of anger.
"Logan" I mumbled.
He stopped the car abruptly and my body flew forward.
"What the hell dude?" I screamed.
"Why?" He looked over at me with hurt eyes.
"You don't have the right to be mad. You're going with someone else" I cried.
He grabbed my cheeks and pulled me towards him, what are you doi..before I could finish my train of thought his lips forcefully crashed into mine. I felt everything inside of me click, it was as if all of my feelings were coming together to form this one big feeling. Everything inside of me was tingling and I felt my stomach roar with excitement. This kiss brought me back, back to the first time I saw him and knew.
I instantly pulled back, slapped him, and ran out of his car. Tears were flooding my cheeks and all of my emotions were scattered in his car.
Please don't do this to me again, Maya.

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