the heart wants what it wants

Clubing

I went home and back up to my room. I found my Diary sitting on my bed. I put it in a safe spot where no one would ever find it. I think I should start locking my door when I'm in my bathroom and when I'm sleeping. I sat on the bed and wrote down everything that happened.The last thing I remember writing was from 2 weeks ago when we were still in Nebraska and James and I were still dating. 

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James and I just got back from the pool at his house. We had an amazing time. Before we went swimming though we went to the movies to see Hot Pursuit. As we were walking into the theater I saw this poster for a movie called Max. We walked in the theater and the previews came on. It was trailers for Fast and Furious 7, Minions, Cinderella, The Gallows, and Max. Max's trailer really interested me. It was about some dog who was totally adorable. The movie finally started and I couldn't believe how funny it was. It was about a cop who is running around Texas to get some lady safely to trial. It stared Sofia Vergara and some other lady. I think that's how you spell Sofia Vergara's last name. Anyway James and I had a wonderful time. He held my hand during the movie and kissed my forehead. After the movie was over we went to his place and swam. At one point we were trying to knock each other in the pool. I went down first bringing him with me as I held onto his arm. It was so fun. To bad I'm moving in a week. I'm gonna miss hanging out with James and friends. Mainly I'm just gonna miss Nebraska. 

I read over what I last wrote. Then I realized I'm to old for this Sugar. Honest. Ice. Tea. I put my diary in a drawer I never open. I know I said I was to old for it but I still want to remember what I wrote. I have over 200 diary entries. 

Hours past and I just spent them in my room making Vine videos and on my computer. 

I got a text from Max. I know him and I broke up and Janet and him called the cops but he did save my life, multiple times.

It was already 8:30.

Max: "Hey Cameron, Taylor, Alex, Janet, Miguel, a few other girl, and I are going out to the club, you in?"

Me: "What Club."

Max: "I'll explain later. Just meet me at my house. Tell your parents your going out and you'll be home late."

Me: "Okay." 

I grabbed my leather jacket and went downstairs to tell my parents I was going out and that I would be back late. I'm not surprised my parents said okay, they let me do almost whatever I want. I got out my motorcycle and rode over to Max's house. Cameron had already left because his bike wasn't where it usually was. I arrived about 30 minutes later. As I parked my bike in the driveway I heard laughter coming from the backyard where the pool is. I walked back there and opened the fence door. I saw Max and some beautiful black girl who looked like Beyonce and Michael Jordan had a baby. She was that beautiful. She was as thin as a model and obviously worked out. She was very physically fit. I can't believe Max isn't dating her. I walked in and saw like three other girl not counting Janet and Beyonce Jr. 

One girl was Mexican. She had black hair, skinny but not to skinny, she was also physically fit but not like Beyonce Jr. and I. And before you say anything yes I know it's Beyonce and Jay Z and not Beyonce and Michael Jordan. 

The second girl was white and blonde. She kinda had a pear body. She looked like a Victoria Secrets model. You can tell she didn't like working out or sports or sweating for that matter. She was one of those girls.

The third girl was also black. Not much to say about her. She had a normal body, red head, blue eyes, she had a few curves. 

I walked in. Beyonce Jr. was really silent. She didn't really say a word at all. As I walked in Max came up to me and introduced me to everyone. At first I thought he was just using a lot of hand gestures but turns out he was signing. I hadn't recognized it because no one I knew signed. 

Beyonce Jr. was actually deaf. Max was signing for her. I broke out of my comfort zone and signed to her nice to meat you. She then signed back, Hi nice to meet you too. I sat next to her and we continued a conversation. She told me her name (Tasia) and taught me her name sign. She signed fast but it was easy for me to catch up. 

after a few minutes we all got in our cars/ on our motorcycles. We all went to some club called Lizard Lounge. Miguel, Alex, and Taylor came in one car with Tasia and the red head. (red head: Genesis) 

I rode off on my motorcycle to the club, with everyone following each other. 

We arrive at Lizard Lounge around 24 minutes later. We parked our cars and motorcycles and walked in. I had never been to a night club. It's a good thing the music was loud for Tasia. Across from me I saw a handsome teenage boy. He was around 17 or 18. Cameron put his arm around me and we started walking onto the dance floor. The next song that came on was T-Wayne's Nasty freestyle. A little dance mob broke out on the dance floor and I was in it.

song

First lemme hop out the mother fuc(*&^ porsche, Ion want her if the a$$ don't sit like a horse. I be balling on these nig%#*$ got me feeling like sports. Dash got so much wood I could build me a fort. Hate so many things I ain't done yet. I'm the king of $&(%, crowned by the toilet.  I'm barely getting started you already upset. Got a tiger as a pet, I just took him to the vet. etc.

The song finished then 23 by Mike Will came on. I don't know if that guy who I noticed saw me dancing or if he is just really drunk. He had a beer bottle in his hand, but it was a teen club and you can't legally drink till your 21, so I guess someone brought their own. He stumbled up to me and started talking really slow and heavy. He breathed real heavy so you could smell his breath. 

Drunk teenage boy: "Hey I'm Adande. Who are you?"

Me: "Kate. Are you drunk?"

Adande: "Yes mam. I'm also a little high. I think, I can't remember."

Me: "Um... Can I help you with something?"

Adande: "Yeah. You want a sip?"

Me: "No thanks."

I hadn't gotten a good look at him earlier because he was far away and it was dark. He was black, had very little hair. It was like a buzz cut. I couldn't really tell. He also had black eyes. I think. You could obviously tell he worked out. He had really nice biceps. 

Adande: "Anyway. I saw you dancing and I wanted to know if you wanted to go out sometime."

Me: "I have a boyfriend." 

Adande: "Oh yeah where is he?"

Me: "He's dancing."

Adande: "Bring him here."

Me: "I don't need to prove anything to you."

Adande: "Okay well since I don't believe you have a boy friend, how about Friday night?"

Me: "No, I'll bring him."

I walked away to go get Cameron and told him what happened. We walked over to Adande and I showed him Cameron.