the heart wants what it wants

Epilogue 7 years later

Mark's P.O.V

I saw her again. I really can't ever say that I thought about her again. She's always on my mind, never leaves. I love her with all my heart, with all my soul, with all my strength. She's beautiful, flawless even. But that's not the reason I love her. Well I actually don't know why I love her. 

She's just special

Kate teases me because she (Amanda) is my first crush. 

Her hazel blue eyes shined like the stars in the sky, her long blonde hair that rapped seductively around her shoulders, and her soft, full lips. Most of all her kind personality. She was as gentle as a lamb, wouldn't hurt a fly. 

Amanda, Amanda, Amanda

Her name played over and over again in my head like a song that I couldn't get over. I would never get sick of it.

Amanda: "Hey Mark!"

The fact that she actually knew my name stunned me, we never really talked to each other. She started to walk over to me and I felt like I had a thousand butterflies in my stomach. Instead of me turning invisible like I wanted to, I turned red. My face was flushed and I tried to hide it by turning my head away but it didn't work. She saw my face and laughed.

Amanda: "Hope I didn't scare you."

Me: "I don't know how you could. It's just hot." 

I lied, she can't know that I like her. The entire school would find out and then I would be made fun of for having a crush on a girl who would never possibly like me. Plus her boyfriend would beat the shit out of me. 

Amanda: "Okay. Well my grades are dropping and your really smart, so I was just wondering if maybe you could help me study?"

Me: "Um, yeah. What time?"

Amanda: "After school today. Come by around 4:30."

Me: "Cool."

Amanda: "Great.So I'll see you tonight?"

Me: "Yeah."

She turned around and walked back to her friends. She was wearing a crop top, yoga pants, and a flannel that rapped around her waist. She looked so... so... beautiful. It's weird how Kate's used to be arch nemesis (Felicia) turns out to be her best friend and I have a crush on her little sister. What a small world. 

The day passed by slowly but I made it through, eager to go over to Amanda's house and study with her. It's nothing serious but I will take what I can get. 

I stepped on the porch and rang the doorbell. A dog started barking on the other side of the door and then Amanda yelled for it to "Shut up." as she put it. The door opened wide and I stepped into the big mansion that she calls a home. More like a palace in my definition, but anyways back to my story. 

Amanda: "Hey, so glad you can come. I really need some help."

Me: "Sure, glad to help."

Amanda: "Let's go into my room."

We walked into the room and she shut the door. I could tell this used to be Felicia's old room because of the pink bunnies on the wall. Amanda is more into skulls and stuff. Out of all the rooms in this entire house (mansion) I wonder why she would want Felicia's old room, maybe because it's so big.

I set my book bag down and sat down on one the bed, she sat right next to me. I could smell her Paris Amour perfume on her body. I just wanted to grab her and make her mine, to kiss her. Of course I knew that could never happen but I'm just in love with her.