the heart wants what it wants

The Dance Preparation

It's been 2 months. 

2 months since we tagged the bill board.

2 months since Cameron and I broke up.

2 months since I flipped Alejandro off.

Now it's February 13th. A day before the Valentines Day. Max and I are still together. We are going to the dance together. He begged me actually. I hate dances. I think it's stupid having to say how much I love people on a specific day. I do that everyday. It's my first Valentines day without my mom. I'm wearing a black strapless dress. It's actually really pretty. Max is wearing a black tux and a tie or something I guess. 

Annika has decided to guy with some mystery guy who she says is so hot that we have to wait until the dance to meet him. As you would suspect Cameron and Felicia are going together. It's been 2 months since he has been dating her too. I think he really cares about her. Otherwise he would have broken up with her right when I told him we weren't getting back together. 

Ring, Ring, Ring.

Max was calling.

Max: "Hey babe."

Me: "Hey."

Max: "You don't seem to happy to be hearing from me."

Me: "I am. I'm just tired. After all it's Monday. Plus I spent ours picking out dresses with Olivia. Gosh I hate Valentines day."

Max: "What, why? Is it because of me?"

Me: "No of course not. I love you. It's just I hate the idea of having to clam my love for somebody on a specific day. I do that everyday. Plus every valentines day I would spend it with James for six years. It's just kinda different. Even then I hated the idea of Valentines Day. The only reason I celebrate it is because it's a Saint Holiday."

Max: "Oh. So what type of dress did you buy."

Me: "You'll see at the dance. Or when you pick me up. Depending on what we decide."

Max: "Fine. I'll pick you up. 8 o'clock."

Me: "So do you know if Cameron is taking Felicia?"

Max: "Yeah he is. I found out. He didn't tell me. He fugging hates my guts. Man for a girl who HATES Valentines Day you sure do like a lot of drama."

Me: "Don't mess with me. I'm the one who is going to the dance with you."

Max: "Haha. I love your humor."

Me: "Me too."

Max: "You know someday I'm gonna burn you back."

Me: "That'll be the day."

Max: "Bye."

I hung up and put my phone down.

Ring, Ring, Ring

It was Max again.

Me: "What?!"

Max: "You didn't say by back."

Me: "Okay. Bye."

Max: "Bye."

I once again hung up the phone and set it down.

Ring, Ring, Ring.

I expected it to be Max again but it was Cameron.

Me: "Yellow."

Cameron: "It's blue."

Me: "Haha. What's up? I thought you were mad at me."

Cameron: "Not at you."

Me: "Than who?"

Cameron: "That's besides the point. I called for a reason."

Me: "And what is that reason?"

Cameron: "I just wanted to let you know that I hope you and Max have a good time at the dance. And even though I know you said we are never getting back together but I still love you and if you ever want to get back together I would love too."

Me: "Cameron, look I love you too. I real care about you. It's just that when we were dating you would insult me."

Cameron: "I know, I'm really sorry. I was joking. But I realize now that I shouldn't have done that. I shouldn't have joked like that. I've changed. Give me one more chance."

Me: "I'm sure you have. Just give me some time to think."

Cameron: "K. Bye."

Me: "Bye."

I hung up and then took a very deep sigh.

I know I shouldn't have said give me some time to think. I just didn't want to hurt his feelings. I can't do that to people. I love Max and I see Cameron like a brother. Because we argue too much.
I get up from the couch and walk up to my room. I open the closet door and try on my dress once again. I hate dresses but I have to saw. It is the beautifulest thing I have seen.

It's a fishtail dress.It's blue with flowers and a pair of white flats with diamonds on them. The back of my dress is longer than the front. that's why it's a fishtail. The front of the dress shows off my bare legs and the back part of the dress covers up the back of my legs.

I say this once again my dress is absolutely...

BEAUTIFUL

I spent hours at the mall with Olivia looking at dresses. None of them interested me immediately. We passed by a bunch of quincenuera dresses. I saw one that looked like the one I wore for my quince. After many hours we were about to give up and then we found the one I am twirling around in right now. $100 dollars. But it was worth it.I still have to pay back Olivia. 

The music teacher at school asked us what we want played at the dance. I choose Jumpan and Lockedaway. I should have choosen Lean and Dab or Righthand.oh well can't change the past.

I walk over to the radio I have on my desk and turn it on. It blasts the new Justin Bieber album.

Knock, knock, knock

Me: "Who is it?"

The door opened and the person I least expect stood in the doorway.

Felicia: "Hey."

Me:"How did you find where I live?"

Felicia: "You live right across from Cameron.It's not like I needed a navigator. Anyway I came for a reason."

Me: "Yeah, yeah.I know. You want me to stay away from Cameron at the dance. So you can go now."

Felicia: "Actually no. I could careless about you and Cameron. He's over you. I wanted to know if you could give me motorcycle lessons."

Me: "What?"

Felicia: "You heard me. I've been really jealous of your motorcycle. I want to learn how to ride one."

Me: "Um, well 1st you have a ferrari and 2nd Cameron has a motorcyle too. Why don't you ask him?"

Felicia: "Because I want to surprise him and he doesn't know as much as you."

Me: "True. Fine, when do you want to start?"

Felicia: "Today."

Me: "Okay. Let's go?"

Felicia: "Excuse me?"

Me: "You want to learn? We're going to the track."