the heart wants what it wants

Goodbyes

The next day I woke up in my school clothes. I laughed a little. I guess I'm already set for school. I walked into my bathroom to brush my teeth and then downstairs to eat some breakfast. My mother would always make me even though I hated it. When I walk in I see a stranger wearing my moms robe. I thought it was my mom and wanted to believe it but I know that she is lying at the hospital in her bed. I almost don't recognize the face then I realize she is the woman my dad is currently having an affair with. I know she recognizes me. One time here in Texas my mom was working late at the bank and not coming home so my dad found the perfect opportunity to hook up with this woman.

Woman: "Nice, seeing you again Kate."

Me: "It's funny you know my name, but I don't know yours."

Woman: "Olivia, Nice to finally talk to you."

Me: "What are you doing here?"

Olivia: "Your father invited me over, he needed some company. I'm really sorry about your mother. But I promise you I will not try to replace her."

Me: "What are you talking about?"

Olivia: "Your father didn't tell you?"

Me: "Tell me what?"

Olivia: "Well you're father asked me if when all of this is done if I wanted to move in."

Me: "No, my mom is in the hospital, most like brain dead. You can't move in now. Or ever for that matter."

It was already the begging of the day and I was already starting to have a headache. I get to school and my head is throbbing. Sugar. Honey. Ice. Tea.

Max catches me on my way to my locker and starts talking.

Max: "Hey gorgeous. Look I was thinking we ditch. What do you say?"

Me: "Sounds good. Now?"

Max: "Duh. What other day? It's Friday."

Me: "Um okay. Let's do it."

Max and I walked out of the school and into the parking lot. We got on our motorcycles and drove to the place where we first met. I can't really tell, but I think I have joined a gang. My mom would disapprove, but she's nearly gone. When we arrive at the place it's empty. Not a sound. We are alone. I spot a guitar and clutch it in my hands. It looks like my mom's, she used to love to play it.

Max: "I'll be back, I'm gonna go take a waz."

I was alone for a little and played a song that I heard my mom play before she got shot.

I started playing and singing and really got into the song. The only thing I know about the song is that it's from the James Bond movie Spectre it's by: Sam Smith and it's called Writings On the Wall.

Me: "I've been here before, but always hit the floor.

I've spent a life time running, and I always get away, but with you I'm feeling something that makes me want to stay.

Unprepared for this. I never shoot to miss. But I feel like a storm is coming. If I'm going to make it through the day, then their's no more use in running. This is something I got to say.

If I risk it all, could you break my fall?

How do I live, how do I breath? When you're not hear I'm suffocated.

I want to feel love run through my blood. Tell me is this where I give it all up?

For you I have to risk it all, 'cause the writings on the wall."