the heart wants what it wants

Max's P.O.V

Yay indeed Mark, yay indeed. I don't know if he was yaying about the fact that Cameron and Kate broke up or that they had a place to stay the night. Probably the last thing. Honestly the last thing I heard her say until I stopped paying attention was Cameron and I broke up. After that I was screaming inside my head YAS! I deserve to be with Kate not that idiot. He was my best friend until he stole Kate from me. Yes I know it was partly my fault but then again if he hadn't dated her I could have had more time to win her back. I let Kate and Mark in to set there stuff down. I guess Mark can sleep with me in my room and Kate will sleep in the guest room so she can have some privacy. Kate set her stuff down and we sat in the living room while watching Mark play with some toys that I have for when my nephew comes over.

Me: "So, what happened between you and Cameron?" I couldn't help but ask that with a smile.

Kate: "I dumped him. He was just ugh... I don't want to talk about it."

Me: "So since you and him aren't together anymore do you want to get back together."

Mark: "Kate I have a question, how are babies made. I heard mom and dad earlier talking about wanting to have another kid."

I laughed so hard. I can't believe that he asked that.

Me: "Well Mark when a mommy and a daddy love each other very much they decide to spend a lot of alone time together...."

Kate: "Actually Mark this is something mom and dad will talk to you about when you are older."

I continued laughing. I hate my laugh. Kate has told me that she loves it but I don't believe that. My God I love her so much. I wonder if she feels the same about me. I just want to be able to hold her in my arms and never let her go. And to be able to kiss her without anybody disrupting.

Me: "So as I was saying, since you and Cameron broke up do you want to get back together?"

Kate: "Max, look your a sweet guy its just,"

I pulled her closer. Not wanting her to finish her sentence because I fear the worst might happen. I fear that she will reject me and I will never be able to get her back.

Kate: "It's just,"

Her nose touched my nose. We are so close that our breaths touch. I pull her in a little closer and it's just centimeters until our lips touch. Her hands on my face and my hands on her hips. Beautiful I think, she's so beautiful. I would give my life for her. I never want to let her go. she brings me in a little closer and we kiss. Her lips are soft and delicate like rose petals. Her breath as warm as a fire. She's perfect. She's flawless. How could I have ever let go of the girl who has been kind to me even when I made the biggest mistake in my life, how could I just let her slip away. Well that won't happen again. She's mine forever. I will protect her from all harm and never let anyone hurt her. I remember a quote I saw online that Bob Marley said. 'If she's amazing she won't be easy. If she's easy she won't be amazing. If she's worth it you won't give up. If you give up you're not worthy...Truth is everybody is going to hurt you; you just got to find the ones worth suffering for. -Bob Marley'

I would suffer for Kate.

She pulls away and I wish she didn't. I feel a pain when I let her go.

Kate: "Yes I want to get back together with you Max."

Me: "YAS! I mean that's cool."

She laughed a little.

Me: "Kate, I love you."

Kate was silent she didn't say anything. I wonder if she returns my love.

Me: "Why didn't you say I love you back?"

Kate: "I have said I love you to many people and they all seem to slip away. I don't want to say I love you to you because if I do I know I will get my heart broken. Truth is I don't know what love is anymore."

Thanks a lot Cameron and James. You have ruined this for me.

Me: "Okay. Well when ever you want to say it, my feelings will still be there."

Kate: "Thanks."

Me: "Well it's getting late. We should go to bed."

Kate: "Okay. Mark, follow Max."

Mark: "Okay."

We walked upstairs to my room and Mark and I got ready for bed. It was kind of awkward changing in front of each other but we are both guys and it doesn't matter. I laid out a sleeping bag for Mark to sleep on and gave him a pillow and an extra blanket.

Kate was just next door but I could here her sobbing. I wonder what's wrong.

When Mark fell asleep I walked over to her room. The door creaked open and Kate sat up, trying to dry her tears as fast as possible.

Me: "What's wrong?"

Kate: "My dad is drunk, Mark is terrified, My mother is in a coma, I just got out of a relationship, and I can't even say I love you to you even though I really want to."

Me: "It's okay. Here shove over."

I crawled into bed with her. Nothing happened I just laid there with her holding onto her until she fell asleep. I kissed her forehead and stroked her head. When she fell asleep I just laid there staring at her. Beautiful. I remember the first time we met. That leather jacket she wore that made her look badass. When she was staring at me and then took a picture. I remember how I blushed and the pool party, but the thing I wish I didn't remember was that mistake I made. That one mistake I made that messed everything up for me. I don't want to think about it. I'm just happy that I have her back. Her in my arms right now, me holding her in my strong arms. She's only wearing a long t-shirt and her underwear. I kiss her one more time and then begin to drift asleep with her still in my arms.

Tomorrow is another day and I will wake up to her beautiful face.

Me: "I am never letting you go." I whispered to her and then fell into a peaceful sleep.