My Hero is a Gangster *complete

Chapter 38

"Ate, may nagpadala nito kanina. Hindi ko alam kung kanino galing."

Iniabot sakin ni Francine ang isang puting sobre. I observed it first but there is no name but it was addressed to me. I carefully tear off the envelope to open the letter.

I was surprised to see plane tickets and a  letter.

Dear Anak,

Have yourself and your siblings a little vacation. I know you've been through alot. Pero gusto ko lang makabawi sainyo. I've already made arrangements, the hotels and food. Isa pa malapit na rin ang birthday ni Fritz. I just want to make him happy kahit na hindi ko kayo masyado makasama. I'm sorry and I love you all.

Love,
Papa

Honestly, I want to rip off the letter.Is this all he got? But before I could do that Fritz already snatched it from me. Malakas at mabagal nitong binasa ang sulat.

"Totoo ba ate? Pinagbabakasyon tayo ni papa? Yehey!" Sigaw nito.

"Ano yan?" Hinanggit naman ni Francine ang sulat.

Tumingin ito sakin na parang nanunuri. Kinuha rin nya sakin ang plane tickets. I know she hated our father. Kaya nagulat ako sa sunod nyang sinabi.

"Well, bakasyon na rin naman ate. It's not bad to unwind a little." Sabi nito.

"P-pero malayo ang Palawan. Tsaka marami pang dapat asikasuhin dito."

"Its just 3 days and 2 nights ate. Hindi naman natin kelangan magtagal. Isa pa gustong bumawi ni Papa. Might as well give him a chance." Dagdag ni Francine.

"Sige na ate! Sige na! Pabirthday mo na sakin. Gusto ko magbeach!" Pangungulit ni Fritz.

I was the only one suffering for this. Inosente ang mga kapatid ko at wala silang alam sa sitwasyon. Alam nila na nasa ibang bansa pa rin si Papa. I don't have the right na ipagkait sa kanila ang simpleng kaligayahan na yun.

"Okay sige."

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A week before ang bakasyon namin sa Palawan ay nagpadala ulit si Papa ng cash. Nagtaka ako kung bakit hindi na lang nya pinadala sa bank account ko. Sabi nya sa sulat panggastos daw namin sa Palawan.

Gusto ko sana syang kausapin pero hindi naman sya tumatawag. Hindi ko alam kung nandito pa rin sya sa bansa o wala na. Huling pagkikita namin ay nung nagkagulo sa birthday party ng anak ng congressman. Hindi man lang nya ako kinamusta kung buhay pa ba ako. Pero naisip ko rin na malamang alam nya ang kalagayan namin dahil sa mga tauhan nya.

May kung anong bagay na pumipigil sakin na pumunta sa Palawan. Simula nung nagkasakit si Ryu pakiramdam ko ayaw ko na syang iwanan.  I don't want to tell him that I'll be gone for few days. I was too afraid that once I return he will no longer be here. Ayoko sana syang iwan dahil kagagaling lang din nya sa sakit.

Gusto ko sanang magpaalam sakanya. So I went to his house, the day before the flight. I was standing on his porch and realized that I was too nervous and don't know how to bring that up to him. Alam ko sinabi nya rin sakin na I have to stay close to him. Baka magalit sya sakin.

Bago pa ako makakatok ay bumukas na ang pinto. He was wearing a white sando and a pair of boxers. His hair was disheveled and it seems like he just woke up. But damn! He was still gorgeous than the morning.

"What are you doing here?it's so early" tanong nya.

"Ahm... kasi ano..." hays hindi ko alam kung pano ko uumpisahan bakit nga ba ang aga-aga ko nagpunta sakanya.

"G-gusto mo bang magbreakfast? Ipagluluto kita."

"It's just 7 am." Bulalas nito.

"S-sorry kung naistorbo kita. Kung gusto mo matulog ka na lang ulit. Ipaglilinis na lang kita ng bahay mo."

He made such a cute frown. He made a crease just above his nose bridge. I wonder why all of his action were visible to me. He crossed his arms and raised a brow. He is getting impatient and irate.

"G-gusto mo bang umalis na ako?" Medyo kinakabahan kong tanong.

"Get me a coffee" yun lang ang sinabi nya kaya mabilis akong pumunta sa kusina na nya para ipaggawa sya ng kape.

Matapos kong dalhin sakanya yung kape ay naupo na rin ako malapit sa tabi nya.

"Tell me, what do you need?"

"W-wala naman." I can't help but stutter.

" Is this about your vacation?" Tanong nya.

I stared at him in confusion. How did
He know about it? I haven't mention anything to him. Seems like he read through my mind and answered the unvoiced questions.

"Your brother told me. I went to your house the other day pero wala ka."

I stared at him in silence. Waiting for his next words or any sign other sign.

"Are you worried that I may not allow you to leave?" Tanong nito.

Umiling ako bilang sagot. I bit my lower lip and played with my fingers. I tried to build up in my mind the emotions I want to let out.

"I was more worried to leave you alone." Mahina kong sagot.

Hindi ako makatingin sakanya. Kinakabahan kasi ako sa pwedeng maging reaksyon nya. I'm not really good at showing my feelings or even voicing out. But I just want my feelings to somehow reach him.

"Natatakot rin ako na kapag umalis ako, I will not see you here anymore... I'm afraid that you'll go back to Japan."

I looked up to him and saw how he swallowed hardly. His Adam's apple bobbing inside his throat. I saw a glint of pain and exhaustion in his dark eyes.

"Dahil ba to sa sinabi sayo ni Hiro? You shouldn't have listen to that asshole." He said emotionless.

Now, I couldn't read his emotion. He hide everything through his eyes. I don't even know how he did that. My heart was hammering inside my chest. I don't know to start it but I want to tell him that I know everything. Pero inuunahan pa rin ako ng takot.

"You shouldn't be worrying about that. Ienjoy mo na lang yung bakasyon mo with your family. You deserve it. I'm allowing you to leave."

I swallowed a lump in my throat. My hands are sweating. I stood up ready to leave. It wasn't what I want to hear from him.

"T-thank you."

Tumalikod na ako para sana magpaalam sakanya. When I heard him call out my name.

"Farine. I'll stay and I'll wait for you"

Hindi ko napigilang mapangiti. That's enough for me to be at ease. Sometimes he's cold and unpredictable but there are times that only few words from him can make my world turn upside down.

Once I get back from vacation. I will confess my feelings for him. Wala na tong urungan. Kahit chances are minimal na magustuhan nya rin ako. I will not regret letting him know how much he means to me.
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