Little anxiety

Chapter 18 - My cure and my curse

Calum's POV

Shay was just about to tell me who she and Little Anxiety had gotten a record deal with before I was rudely interrupted. Courtney came bouncing up to me pulling me away from the warm embrace with Shay. 

"what the hell do you think your doing with my boyfriend?!" she yelled, pulling me further towards her. "you fucking slut, look ,you're as ugly as fuck why would you think he would go for you" she continued to yell at Shay.

"oh I am so sorry.." Shay apologised her face looking cute and worried. Pushing Courtney away from me, I looked her up and down laughing.

"boyfriend, you think I would date you?" I asked glaring at her, she had just interrupted my hug with Shay and she was gonna pay.

"well yeah, we have been to parties together before and had sex and all" she said in a duh tone. I could feel the anger rising in me once again and I looked towards Shay. She had a hurt look on her face after Courtney had mentioned us having sex, but quickly covered it up.

"your a fat, ugly slut, who should never have had the privilege to talk to me, let alone sleep with me" I yelled pissed that Shay now knows I had sex with Courtney. "You were simply there willing to sleep with me, it meant nothing, you just a whore" I yelled again this time lunging forward to intimidate her. I brought my fists into the air, not sure how long I could control my anger.Shay suddenly stood in front of Courtney her fists ready in defence. Even after Courtney had said such mean things to her she was still willing to defend her. 

"back the fuck off hood!" she threatened. I launched towards her grabbing ahold of her wrists and squeezing, how dare she talk like that to me.

"yeah, you dick head!" Courtney yelled after Shay, trying to be tough and take her chance to get back at me. 

"shut up you slut" Shay said looking her up and down, "you better leave this party before I'm the one beating the shit out of you". Courtney quickly scurried off, tears falling down her make up caked face. Letting my fist fall to my side I sighed slumping against the wall.

"sorry" I mumbled feeling guilty.

"yeah you should be you cocky bastard, threatening some weak slut and punching your best friend" She said now towering over me because I was sitting down. She looked furious and yet slightly jealous, could she feel the same way I do? She continued to yell at my making ridiculous hand gestures and swearing like a sailer. What she didn't get was it was all for her, and I hated it. I hated feeling like someone could make me feel this weak, but then so in control. I couldn't get angry at her and I followed her command when she told me to stop. She was my cure and my curse.

"shut up, alright!" I yelled back at her hoping she would just let it go and stop being angry at me, I couldn't take it. Suddenly a pain ignited in my cheek, and I look over to Shay slowly placing her hand by her side. I growled but she only tried to slap me again this time I caught her hand. Looking at her lightly freckled wrists I noticed bruises and a small scar. 

"what is this?" I asked lightening my grip but not letting her go. The bruises were new, very new as if they only started to bruise. 

"it's nothing" she said trying to pull her hand back. 

"what is this!"  I yelled this time pushing her against the wall. 

"I don't know, it's just a bruise" She said, it wasn't just a bruise, it was a massive bruise.

"so it wouldn't hurt if I did this?" I asked lightly brushing my fingers across the purple skin. She cringed a small yelp escaping her mouth, the mouth I would so very much like to kiss.

"I am fine, it's just pain I can ignore it like I always do" she said turning her head to look at the ground. Who did this to her, who would want to.

"who did it!" I demanded pressing myself against her, she was now completely cornered.

"you did, for fuck sake!" She yelled "you did, now stop it your scaring me" What how could I? when did I? Letting her arm fall to her side, I took a step back.

"What?" I said confused.

"it's nothing, I know you didn't mean it, but please just stop yelling" she begged a tear falling down her freckled cheek.

"I'm, I'm so sorry" I pleaded "please don't be scared of me, I would never do anything to hurt you, you know that right?" I said bringing her into a hug and nestling her against my chest. 

"I know, please just don't yell" She begged, snuggling into me.