Little anxiety

Chapter 22 - Beside you

Shay's POV

Why had I let Calum in? Why had I hopped into the bath tub with him? What was I doing? What was I feeling? Question after question ran through my head.

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted

I thought about our last kiss, how it felt, the way you tasted

And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine

Are you somewhere feeling lonely even though he's right beside you?

When he says those words that hurt you, do you read the ones I wrote you?

Sometimes I start to wonder, was it just a lie?

If what we had was real, how could you be fine?

'Cause I'm not fine at all

Calum's voice echoed though out the bathroom, it was husky, yet melodic and high. It was amazing! Leaning my head against his chest I felt the vibration of his voice. My eyes started to grow heavy and flutter shut.

"please don't yell" I asked quietly as I finally fell into a light sleep.

"never again" he spoke catching my hand as it fell from the tattoo I had been tracing on his arm.

Calum's POV

Shay had just fallen asleep and I had just promised I would never yell at her again. I have no idea how I was going to keep that promise. I lay there as she slept thinking over the events of the last 24 hours. So far Shay had gotten a record deal with the same record company as 5 Seconds Of Summer, me and Shay had a fight at the party, and then she saw me with someone else. 

But finally Shay had an anxiety attack, but I still don't know why, all I know it it's the yelling but why? And now she was asleep on my lap in a bath tub with her clothes soaked with cold water. Just as I finished summarising the last few events Shay started shivering more than she was before. I quickly picked her up taking her into Bethany's bed room and tucking her in underneath the blankets. 

A loud crash came from downstairs and a roar of laughter and screams travelled up the stairs. Shay moved in her sleep, muttering words under her breath. "Did you ever love each other? why can't I see daddy? I'm sick of you guys observing me like I'm in a zoo!" The last one she yelled, hugging her pillow tighter and throwing off her blankets. The yells from downstairs continued and seemed to get louder. Abby seemed to be yelling at Holly whilst Michael and the boys were shouting over a computer game. I stood up ready to rip all their tongues out if they didn't shut up.

"Please don't go, I won't be able to sleep" Shay muttered her eyes opening slightly as she tried to sit up. She winced as if her head hurt but continued to try and sit up. 

"I'm just going downstairs to tell them to shut up" I replied making my way back over to her and sitting on the bed. She shook her head clutching my shirt.

"please don't go, you don't have to ever talk to me again but just please stay with me now" she begged, shaking more violently. She thought I didn't want to be near her, that I didn't want to talk to her, well she couldn't be more wrong.

"at least let me tell everybody to be quiet" I whispered laying her back down and pushing her hair out of the way.

"Mhh K" she said a cute expression appearing on her face, she looked like a cat and I loved cats. Leaving the room I stomped down stairs and into the living room.

"you better shut the hell up before I rip your tongues out" I yell whispered, trying to get my point across without upsetting Shay. They all turned to look at me the guys looked amused whilst the girls looked worried, but not because of me.

"What? is she up? is she ok?" the girls started shooting questions at me before starting to head up stairs. But I stood in front of the door blocking their access to the room.

"your not going in there, she's sleeping or was until you guys woke her up" I spat angry they would be so loud and careless whilst their friend was having an anxiety attack. They glared at me but then looked towards the door and their expressions softened and they head back downstairs, tip-toeing as they went.

"you better look after her, cause if you hurt her even the slightest bit I will cut off your tiny dick before you have the chances to fuck another girl" Abby whispered, right in my face, Holly and Bethany standing behind her.

"don't think we didn't see your little façade with some slut last night" Holly whispered hoarsely. Well shit, now I have a group of insane, hormonal girls after me. Heading back into Bethany's room I looked towards the bed were Shay was curled up trying to stay awake.

"Hahah, I don't know what they think our relationship is but your gonna get fucked up" she laughed quietly.

"and what would our relationship be exactly?" I questioned, genuinely interested but I sounded like a dush-bag.

"fellow companions in the music industry, who's friends are romantically involved" she answered before turning over in the bed and sighing. Lying down next to her I wrapped my arms around her waist and nuzzled my head into her shoulders. 

Shay why were my best moments in life always beside you?