Little anxiety

Chapter 46 - Ugh As If

Shays at the top with her outfit

Shay's POV

Agh this week has been way to exhausting and I can't wait to get to the girls house and jam. It's been ages since I have seen them and I missed them like crazy.

"ahhhhhhhh, Shay you bitch!" A scream came from Abby's front door as I pulled up to her house.

"Bethany, aghhhh I have missed you so much!" I scream back running to hug her.

"you ready?!" Abby screamed running out of the door and jumping into my ready arms.

"always" I reply and go hug Holly, "Huh still haven't grown an inch I see" I mumble loud enough for her to hear it.

"BITCH!" she yells running away.

'Haha oops, ready to practice, we have one more small town gig, agh" I say to whoever is left.

"Yup, but let's eat first" Abby laughs, before we walk into the kitchen. As we entered I was met by a large gang of teenage boys. Abby walked past them stealing her brother, Seth's last slice of pizza and we did the same to the rest of his friends. They all cried out as if in pain but stared intensely at us as we walked away. 'Ugh as if' hormone infested perverts. Seth was 15 now, which was really old to us because we had watched him grow up and play with trains after running around the house naked. So when him and his friends tried to flirt all we could do was laugh.

"And one, two, three, four!!" Abby yelled clicking her drum sticks together, queuing us to start the song.

I ponder of something greatMy lungs will fill and then deflateThey fill with fireExhale desireI know it's direMy time today
I have these thoughtsSo often I oughtTo replace that slotWith what I once bought'Cause somebody stoleMy car radioAnd now I just sit in silence
Sometimes quiet is violentI find it hard to hide itMy pride is no longer insideIt's on my sleeveMy skin will screamReminding me ofWho I killed inside my dreamI hate this car that I'm drivingThere's no hiding for meI'm forced to deal with what I feelThere is no distraction to mask what is realI could pull the steering wheel
I have these thoughtsSo often I oughtTo replace that slotWith what I once bought'Cause somebody stoleMy car radioAnd now I just sit in silence
I ponder of something terrifying'Cause this time there's no sound to hide behindI find over the course of our human existenceOne thing consists of consistenceAnd it's that we're all battling fearOh dear, I don't know if we know why we're hereOh my,Too deepPlease stop thinkingI liked it better when my car had sound
There are things we can doBut from the things that work there are only twoAnd from the two that we choose to doPeace will winAnd fear will loseThere's faith and there's sleepWe need to pick one please becauseFaith is to be awakeAnd to be awake is for us to thinkAnd for us to think is to be aliveAnd I will try with every rhymeTo come across like I am dyingTo let you know you need to try to think
I have these thoughtsSo often I oughtTo replace that slotWith what I once bought'Cause somebody stoleMy car radioAnd now I just sit in silence
(Oooh) [x4]
(Oooh) [x6 & repeats in background]And now I just sit in silence [x2]And now I just sit
And now I just sit in silence [x3]And now I just sit
I ponder of something greatMy lungs will fill and then deflateThey fill with fireExhale desireI know it's direMy time today
I have these thoughtsSo often I oughtTo replace that slotWith what I once bought'Cause somebody stoleMy car radioAnd now I just sit in silence

We belted the last verse out, singing with everything we had and retired for the day to eat.

"Hey Holly I have tickets to a movie tomorrow night and I was wondering if you wanted to go?" One of Seth's little friends asked smoothly. He had tried to lower his voice, failing miserably and instead it just broke, aww poor kid.

"Agh thanks but no thanks, I like mature and older man" She responded.

"Is that so?" A familiar voice said from the front door. There leaning against the wall and door frame was 5SOS, great just great.

"Well that explains a lot of things, like why she would go for Ashton of all people" Calum laughed, snidely whilst punching Ashton playfully in the arm.

"Hey, at least he has someone going for him" I laughed back at him and Michael snickered along with me.

Calum's POV

It seemed Shay was stilled pissed at me because the first thing I say she rudely replies with a sassy comeback. The boys were bored and Michael had finished is game so we decided to go to Abby's house and annoy them for a while, well we got the annoying part right.
Michael had continue to snicker at Shays last remark and it was pissing me off.
"Shut the fuck up Michael, we all know Shay is a hoe!" I yell at Michael but looked at Shay as I called her a hoe. I knew it got to her every time I said it, It made her feel like just another one of my many whores.
"Hey don't talk about Shay like that!" One of the little teenagers yelled at me. Moving closure to Shay and wrapping his arm around her, who did this little bastard think he was touching Shay in that way. Ugh I hate how I am jealous because of Shay, I shouldn't care for her at all.
"She is beautiful, talented and in no way a 'hoe'!" He yelled at me and then turned to Shay. "So there's this nice ice cream shop that has just opened up around the corner..." He suggested. Oh that was it, my jealousy had peaked and that mother fucker was going to die.
"Ok little dude, calm down and leave this to the men" I laughed evilly before dragging Shay into the closest room, which happens to be the bathroom.
"Ahh what the hell?" Shay asked me pissed and confused.
Should I tell her?