Little anxiety

Chapter 29 - Your scared of me

Shay's POV

We had been sitting in Calum's car driving to an unknown destination for 20 minutes now and not one of us said a word. My cheek hurt like a bitch, but my heart hurt more. I was staring out the car window watching the raindrops race down the wind shield. I was worried about Ian and his baby makers, Calum had kicked him hard, I could even feel the pain. After that I didn't see much because Calum was running me out of the venue with paparazzi cameras flashing violently.   

"umm...." Calum started but shut his mouth quickly. It was the first sound beside the soft hum of the car for a while and shocked me a bit. He sounded worried and almost like he was in agony. But I was stilled pissed with him, well worried and pissed.

"Spit it out" I demanded, without looking his way. I saw his head turn away from the road to through me a quick glance before placing his eyes back on the straight road ahead of us.

"I'msorry" He blurted out quickly "I'm Sorry" He said again this time slowly with more confidence.

"For what? you didn't do anything" I asked, knowing exactly what he was apologising for.

"Seriously! I punched you, after beating up your date!" he yelled, making me jump in shock. Why was he the one all emotional, sure Ian was a nice guy but I only think of him as a friend.

Flashback 

"Shay, can I borrow a pencil?" Ian asked, leaning a little to close to me. I had known Ian for a while now, but never really given him a second thought. He was just that sweet guy in a couple of my classes. I did make out with him at a party in year ten but we were drunk, so it didn't really count. But I hoped to get to know him better because he was a bad boy that was good to me. He beat a celebrity up for me without hesitation, and that's pretty fucking awesome.

End of flashback

"Pull over and let me out now!" I demanded, having finally made my decision. I didn't have any feelings for Calum and I will continue to deny I do. I will  go on with life and school and focus on music. 

"No, god dammit!" He yelled, slamming his fists against the steering wheel. He was getting angrier as the seconds ticked by and to be truthful I was scared shit less. I saw what he did to Ian and he has already punched me tonight. I was strong and stubborn as fuck  but when it came to a physical fight with a sober man, I knew I would lose in seconds. 

"please, just pull over" I begged, felling hot tears run down my cheek. Why is it that I have cried more in the last month of meeting Calum than I have in my entire life.

"your scared of me" Calum whispered, his voice hitching and his breathing slowing. "You think I'm going to hurt you."  

"Please, just please pull over and let me out" I silently begged.

"your fucking scared of me aren't you!" His voice raised, he slammed on the breaks. Luckily there was nobody behind us to crash into us. This could be my chance to run, unbuckling my seat belt I reached for the door handle but I heard it click shut before I could open the door. I turned to see Calum shaking in anger, his fist clenched around the steering wheel, I was surprised he didn't break it.

Calum's POV

Rage filled me as I found out she was actually scared of me, I know I had punched her but I would never ever intentionally hurt her. Right now she was pressed against the car door, tears and fear clear in her eyes. I had locked the car doors on her as she tried to get out and lets just say that was a mistake because now she was even more scared. My knuckles where white from being clenched so hard as I lunged forward gripping her dress in my fist. She whimpered closing her eyes as if to wait for impact or pain. Growling, I let go of her unlocking the car doors and opening her door. She opened her eyes in shock but didn't hesitate to scramble out of the car.

And that was the last I saw of her, before I slammed the door driving of in anger.