Promise me

Arguments

I woke up feeling a big pair of arms around my waist, it felt strange but I wasn't complaining. Rubbing my eyes, I notice how bright it was outside. I switch my phone on, so I can see the time.
"Shit" I panic. Joe slowly comes too.
"What are you doing up so early?"
"Joe its 10" I say shoving my shoes on as quick as I could.
"Why didn't you wake me up? I'm so late" I had already missed my first lesson.
"I forgot you had collage I'll drive you"
"I was supposed to be home by half 6 my mum is gonna kill me"
"It's fine, calm down, we'll pack up and set off, ok?" Joe says resting his tanned hands on my arms.
We dismounted the tent and rolled up our sleeping bags. Jumping in the car. I started to smirk realising I could tick it this night off my Iist.
"Your mum won't be mad, she wouldn't have let you sleep out in the middle of nowhere if she was gonna be strict!" Joe says whilst indicating his turn.
"It's not like that she'll only let me because she feels bad"
"Wait why does she feel bad?" God I let that slip out, As soon as Joe asked me my stomach did a thousand back flips.
"It doesn't matter" I mutter.
"You should just have the day off you've missed the morning you might as well and like you said your mum feels 'bad' she may let you off?" Something about him saying this made my blood boil It made me so angry and I couldn't reframe from showing it.
"Oh it's that simple is it!" I shout.
"Wait why are you shouting at me all of a sudden?" Joe asks calmly.
"Your just make everything seem like it can be sorted and it can't always" I was no longer shouting over school, it was like I was using school as the cover to realise my emotions about the cancer, I couldn't tell Joe it was one whirlwind game of taboo.
"It's only school why are you getting mad at me!" He voice began to raise voice to match mine.
"It's important to me you don't get it!" I shout.
"Yeah you right I don't bloody get it, and do you want to know why that is Jane? You keep acting fucking suspicious and covering things up and you won't tell me and I thought we were pretty close friends and I feel like whatever your hiding will effect me and that's why your doing it, so will you just put me out my God damn misery!" He was perfectly right but putting him out of his misery would lead him to pain, I would lead him to pain. I couldn't do that. I wouldn't do that.
"Pull over" in one swift movement he did I got out and walked away.
"Jane wait I'm sorry can't we just-" I carried on walking till I couldn't hear his voice no more, what had I done?

I cried all the way to school till my eyes were dry like a desert so no more tears could roll down, I text Andy to meet me some place quiet in school luckily it was lunch.
After telling everything that happened and every last detail I waited for her to respond.
"You to care about one another I can tell, but if you do telling him is gonna hurt, but it hurts more to be lied to"
"I can't bring myself to do it though I look at his soft features, and I just-"
"No one is saying you have to do it now just wait and let the situation cool off" I nod as my reply.

I'm just a gift of sadness, I'll come into your life making it seem amazing just to demolish everything in your path leaving you broken.

AUTHORS NOTE
OMG, first ever fight oh dear oh dear. I was writing this like "oooo kill em" hehe anyway shout out time woop woop .... Firstly you need to check out my friends new story, it's beautifully written and a great storyline it's called ' on the rocks ' so check it out! ziamsnuggets also please check out psicanseeghosts because her story made me cry like a load, very gripping storyline also she a very cool fox ;) that is it, J x