Promise me

Dresses

I was lying next to Joe, with Vinnie lying on the bed, watching Joe sleeping made me feel so content, stroking his hair out of his face, I couldn't get up. The more I tried the more I struggled. Unfortunately I woke up Joe by trying,
"Hey it's ok I'll help you now" he croaked. Joe and I had been together for 5 months, a month ago i should already be gone. Just shows there's no giving up. 5 months that's 140 days, nearly have a year.
"Thanks" I say as Joe helps me, he's been my rock I can't stop feeling guilty but he reminds me this is the best times for him.
"I need to get ready" 
I started to worry a little as I was going to miss my driving lesson.
"Jane love maybe you should miss it"
"What Joe I can't I need to tick it" referring to the list. That I had previously done before I carried on adding.
"It's ok to miss that, your health means more, plus what was the main reason for the list?" He questions.
"To be happy" I sigh. Knowing he's right.
"That's my girl" he kissed my head.
I hadn't told Joe the other day, but I wrote my will, after passing out again I thought that was it, that gave me the push to write it.
"You want to be well for the dance! After all rumour has it you have a handsome chap as your date"
I laugh.
"Oh really" I smirk even though I was exhausted.
"Yeah really" he winks at me. I get dressed, and begin putting my hair into two Dutch braids.
Then I pick up Vinne and just cuddle him for a while, I couldn't believe tomorrow was the dance yet I had nothing to wear, I had been so physically drained that I hadn't been able to walk very well, allowing me time to myself to think which left my thinking of the worst and fearing my future.
I was so excited for this prom as I never got to go with everything happening with my dad, I should probably call him, as he told my mum I was leaving in such a kind way, which I wouldn't think he was able to do, my mum was so angry that I only rang her but relief brought her back calmly when she found out I didn't go through with it. Zoe and Niomi and Andy and my mum ( of course), where taking me shopping for a dress but I could barely pick up my feet.
I was sad I couldn't complete driving but at the same time the dance meant more to me.
It was a meal, then a dance but then I'm going to spend the evening just with Joe like a last dance with him.  It's basically the goodbye dance to all my friends. I glad I'm still here as it gave me longer to plan.

Should I invite my dad, there's my family, my one friend and the youtubers. I guess if I did invite him he could keep my mum company.
I decided I will, we never talked probably after the letter but I respect his courage in which his letter was full of honesty.
I pull myself up, then walking past the kitchen I kiss Joe, to then get in the car with my mum and Andy. Joe was going to take Vinnie out to keep him entertained.

When we got to the shop I couldn't contain my enthusiasm, i picked out 10 dresses and once I tried them on I struggled to pick I got it down to two, one white and a navy one.
"You should just get both you can afford that it will just leave a bit of the will money" my mum said, so the girls began squealing.
"What will I where the white one for then?"
"For the evening with Joe just surprise him!" Zoe said.
"Ok" I scream shaking with an exhilarated  voice.
Navy was for the event and the White for was for the evening just symbolising what are future could have led to.
Andy picked a nude dress, Zoe went for black and Niomi went for red the rest was going to be a surprise.