Promise me

The truth

As I walked away I could feel my eyes beginning to sting as all I wanted to do was cry, why couldn't my life have a happy ending? I was finally happy and I felt like my life or myself had a purpose but it wasn't going to last. I had fallen in love for only a disease to end it.

As I walked away attempting to go as quick as possible, the cold air bit at my skin. Suddenly I felt a hand grab my arm, spinning me around revealing who was responsible for turning me back around. My gut instinct was telling me who exactly is was, and unfortunately it was correct.
"Where you going? Why are you walking away, Jane are you okay?" Joe ask with his face looking extremely worried.
"I just can't do this Joe people know about us and the kiss, and I can't do it, I'm going to hurt you and I can stop it from happening but I'm being selfish and letting you love me and-"
"Jane I don't know what your going on about, you need to explain, just calm down" he says whilst holding me.
"Right lets go get a drink in the restaurant and talk this over slowly" he says guiding me to were our date was smoothly supposed to be happening. Whilst walking there not one of us spoke, it was silent as we got there, grabbed a table and sat down. Then Joe broke the silence.
"I'm listening, go ahead I promise to listen" he says whilst grabbing my hand a giving it little squeeze.
"Ok, Joe I just want to start by saying I'm extremely sorry for what's about to happen, I met you for my bucket list it was the number one thing I wanted to do was meet you, one thing I never told you is that I made rules to this bucket list, like not to date as this would bring arguing and things that would ruin the set time I made the bucket list for, I wanted to make sure I had the best time ever, there's a certain reason to this Joe and I'll tell you it now but I've not told you earlier because you mean a lot to me and I didn't think you would I didn't think my idol would be my friend or actually have a chance of becoming more, look Joe I really like you, like REALLY like you and it pains me to tell you-" I get interrupted by Joe.
"Jane I really like you as well so I don't care about the fact your hiding something, you shouldn't have been so worried, that's it I'm just gonna ask you, would you please go on a real date with my now we've accomplished the fact we both-"
"I didn't finish I'm hiding something big though, and I'm gonna hurt you and people and-"
"Jane I'm sure it's fine look, would you do me the honour of being my girlfriend?"
"Joe your not listening to me I have ca-"
"How I'm not listening? You've just told me something that I'm so glad to hear!"
"But you haven't bothered to listen to the news that is going to make you regret ever meeting me"
"Jane you're being ridiculous, how would that ever be a thought in my mind!" He raises his voice making people turn heads.
"I'm not doubting you Joe it's just that you need to let me finish in finding this difficult enough-"

"When did it become my fault?" People where darting there eyes back at forth at our table then continue to mutter with their partners.
"Joe please listen-" I try to speak again.

"As long as we're still ok and it won't effect our feelings for one another-"

"Joe I have-"

"Jane what are we now that I know-"

"Joe I don't think it's the best for us to date once I tell you this anyway" I say.

"What after all this?! You finally emitting that you like me and I work up the courage to ask you out, and know your telling me we can't go out!"

"But you don't understand" I say near enough whispering.

"I do now your mucking me around I love you and I can't stand seeing any other lad sweep you off your feet as I want you to myself"

"Joe that's not possible"

"Why Jane, why? What can stop us being together? Right now it's you! And I don't get why because you said you-"

"Joe it's not my fault" I say getting worked up.

"Well it seems like your decision! You've been controlling it all so far"
People were complaining about the noise of our shouting, the atmosphere was overwhelming I couldn't take it.

"Look if I could change-" I began.

"You can though and you chose not to!"

"I have no chose right now!!" I say frustrated.

"What could you possibly have no choice over Jane, what?"

"Cancer Joe! I have terminal cancer!" I shout with anger. I shrink back to myself to only realise what I had just done.

AUTHORS NOTE:
WOW, it's out! Oh my god how will Joe react!! Have to wait and see ;)
Also my phones all repaired woop woop! Ten times easier to update, my mum was like "if you break it again no repairs" so I'm like keeping it in 5 cases! Haha, thank you all for 211 reads it means a lot!!!