Promise me

Appoinment

Arriving at the hospital, I unclip my seat belt. Once the car was parked, my mum got a ticket from the machine which meant we would have a set amount of time to keep the car there. Walking into the building I wasn't sure what to think. Seriously it was strange I wondered if people looked at me and thought, well she's here for this or that.
Mainly all I could think about the fact it hadn't sinked in, it still hasn't effected me dramatically yet. I can run, learn and do things by myself, for now anyway. Moreover there wasn't much I could miss, not to sound harsh, but the only people in my life where Andy and my mum. I'm wanting it to stay that way. As I can put a brave face on and act I'm not scared in front of them both, however I'll feel guilty putting them through the loss of a friend/daughter (not trying to sound like I'm something that's so special that I should be remembered.)  

Whilst waiting to be shouted by the doctor. My mind traces over my thoughts of Joe I'm such a big fan but now that we're friends on a weird level, it somehow takes the fun out of it weather that's it's not special that I met him anymore. As now we're meeting up constantly. Also the pressure of this list means I want it complete and I'm beginning to feel like our friendship is starting to get in the way. Specially since each goal is meant to be a one time thing that is so amazing and can never be done again, meaning the time I did it makes it more treasured.
Time passed by leaving me bored, have they forget I had an appointment? Surely it doesn't take this long for a doctor to have a quick chat with me. Trying to pass time I text Joe. Maybe I should just tell him how I feel ... Not over text that wouldn't be good. Arranging to meet him up and tell him this way seemed a more appropriate approach.

- Hi Joe are you free tomorrow for that film or something else?? X -

Instantly I get a reply...
-yeah do you want me to come down to where you live to save you travelling? What time where you thinking? X -

Tapping away at my phone I think of times to go. Unaware if weather the doctors would ask to see me same time tomorrow I go for a later time then normal.

- No it's fine there's more to do in London, 7:00?? X -

I began bending my head around the corner to see if any doctors where coming to collect people for appointments, to my frustration no one was there, my hope plummeted.

- Later at night then usual trying to hint something there Jane?? ;) x -

Widening my eyes at the phone I laugh I did love his cheeky sense of humour but just to be clear I wasn't.

- No it's just a good movie time, why was you hoping it to be something else? X -

The reply I got made me smile like a 100 watt light bulb, he was funny no denying it. The text back was a simple four letter word, no more.

-SASS-

Closing my phone the heavens opened as someone called my name and lead me to a patients room.   
We sit down and straight away I could sense that we were in for some news.
"So there's no point you even trying cemo-therapy, I'm sorry but we found it far too late"
"So you trying to tell us it's terminal?" My mum says whilst twisting the rings on her finger.
"Yes madam that's correct"
I don't flinch, I don't move this was no surprise I knew it was as soon as they told me I had six months to live. I wouldn't have been given a time if they were so called going to extend it. No chance.
"Its fine I wasn't going to except it, I have dreams to full fill instead of being high of my head on drugs that are supposedly helping me, thank you for your time" I walk out leading my mum also out of the room.
"Jane! We may have not been finished then and you walked and excuse their work of being pointless!"
"I used my manners that must count!" I giggle maybe I may share a sense a humour like Joe's.

AUTHORS NOTE
sorry for it being a day late!!! But this was my day I went the hospital my phone died so my dad didn't know my appointment was finished when it was, so shyly I had to ask the reception to borrow there phone which I struggled to use! Then I rushed in asda ( basically Walmart ) to help my mum do the food shop so she would take me to apple for a new charger then I had my tea at my nans who has crappy internet but ......

I got home and updated and it was all so worth it to see I have 100 reads literally I know it's a small number compared to other stories but it's makes me so happy thank you ever so much!!!

Also I got goal/s and cheeky ( we try and get our inside joke words in chapters lol ) in just for my wonderful two friends who have helped me with this story psicanseeghosts and ziamsnuggets thank you, you 2!

Picture is of Jane's mum hehe she's out of pretty little liars which is me bae!
I need to shut up this author's note is far too long! J x