Promise me

Decisions

AUTHORS NOTE:
This has took me forever to write as I lost it twice thanks to a stupid app I though I would trial! So please excuse mistakes I'm up early tomorrow and it's 12 at night!! But it's update day and I didn't want to let you down so yeah sorry if it's not the best I was so angry I lost it all feel like crying as I put so much effort in the first one as well!!!

Waking up I realise it's school, groaning I get up and begin to get ready for the day.
Packing my books, folders and a banana for breakfast I was good to set off.
"Bye mum I'm off to collage"
"Bye Hun remember straight out school tonight we have an appointment at the hospital"
"Ok" I respond before walking out the door.
I walk to school since I practically live around the corner, approaching the doors I go to my first lesson, walking in I sit next to Andy.
"So has dream boy text you for coffee again?" Andy says sarcastically.
"No and dream boy, really?" I raise an eyebrow.
"Just saying your idol is gorgeous and he's into you and your pushing the fact away ... Your insane!"
"Andy he's not into me!! Yes I know he's ... Decent, but we're friends and I LIKED him as a celebrity crush,notice the past tense there! besides it would be weird to like him since we're hanging out!" I then continue with.
"Andy here" I pass her the bucket list.
"Why are you showing me this?" She questions.
"On the over side is rules and I'm not dating anyone ok? No matter what, imagine a person you deeply loved just died .... I can't bring myself to put anyone through that, that's why I only want the two people in my life that had been there to begin when this all happened! Just you and my mum"
"Are you not going to tell your dad?" Andy interrogates.

Stopping mid response, I'm lost in thought. My hands jitter as I don't know, I don't have an answer. Considering what could happen, I try to make a set decision but I couldn't. And one thing about me is I prefer to have answers.

"I'm not sure yet..."
We both begin to listen to the lesson we had previously been ignoring.
However towards the end I found myself reading over the list and doodling more ideas down. Just because I wouldn't have as long shouldn't mean I have to miss out on other events that take place in the future. Most defiantly not.
Adding and adding I write moving out and to get a pet, even if it was a bloody gold fish it would count. Now I needed to start ticking things off, now more then ever.

As the school day comes to an end I rush home keeping the promise to my mum, to go to the hospital and precisely on time.
As I reach home I open the door letting her know I was home as she grabs her keys, she joins me outside. As we get it in the car my phone starts pinging.

- Are you free tonight?? I thought we could catch a film or something??? Joe x -

Carefully I type a reply not wanting to sound dodgy.

- I'm not I'm stuck at school :( Jane x -
I breathe out a sigh of relief. I didn't want to lie, however I didn't want to be treated any differently from the next person. I would hate to be treated like a tortoise that can't get off its back.

Then I hear noise from the direction of where my phone was.

- I thought school finished at 3:15?? Joe x -

Crap I didn't think of that detail. Thinking throughly I type;
Doing revision tonight but we will reschedule for that film :) Jane x.

As I sit back in my synthetic seat thankful I managed to reply with a suitable answer, the ride stops to a halt as my mum says
"We're here"