I'm terrible at saying how I feel
So instead of turning my heart into steel
And swallowing the words like a pill
I'll write it here for you to steal.
The last year has been the best of my life
Even dealing with all the strife.
I need you to understand the words tore through me like a knife.
Carving my insides and leaving me between here and after-life.
I knew there was something wrong
Listening to that song.
Just need to say what I felt before I regretted it lifelong.
I know I seem so head strong.
But what if I told you I never had myself together.
That even through the darkest storms
I was fighting my way through to you.
I've honestly never felt so blue.
I feel like the air was ripped from my lungs.
As I climbed the ladder to you, now broken rungs.
It feels like I'm drowning inside
And I can't find the upside.
Was it all wasted time?
I would have spent every dime.
I only wanted you to be mine.
I'm taking bullets on the front line.
Carving myself out
I don't know how to manage without.
Falling back into old habits.
Now I'm just staring at the rabbits.
