Trapdoor

Chapter 6

I woke up feeling horrible, my head hurt, my arms hurt, my legs hurt, just everything hurt. I didn't even have enough strength to open my eyes. I didn't even understand why I drank in the first place, it was a dumb idea. I was going to kill Brendon.

But my plans to kill Brendon where interrupted by a knock on my door, making my eyes shoot open. I didn't see Josh in my bed at all, making my heart die just a little, but that wasn't the problem right now. I crawled out of bed, groaning when I stood up.

I made my way to my door and trying my best not to trip over anything laying on the floor.

"What?" I asked, not even bothering to look at who it was.

"Isn't that a rude way to answer someone who brought you donuts and coffee?" It was Josh.

Donuts and coffee? I didn't know he was this perfect.

"I'm sorry," I apologized as I pulled him into my room. "I just woke up."

He chuckled softly. "Its fine."

He walked over to my bed, setting the donuts and coffee on my bedside table. I on the other hand, just flopped back into my bed. That was a bad idea, pain shooting through my head.

"I just wanna curl up and die, god, I just hate alcohol." I groaned and rolled over to look at Josh.

He looked sympathetic, his eyes soft. "I wish I could make it better. If you don't like drinking why'd you do it?"

I shrugged. "I might not get to do this stuff later in life, and I wanted to have fun with you."

He laid down next to me carefully, wrapping me up in his arms. He was warm, heat practically radiating off of him. And his arms where like really nice. I am so gay for this boy, oh my god.

"Please don't say things like that." His voice quiet and soft, he had such a great voice and it made me love him more then I already did.

"I can't help but feel like that." My voice even quieter.

I hated the way my voice sounded. It sounded scared. I was scared that I was going to die. My cancer is going to kill me and I couldn't do anything about it.

At this point I was crying. I was crying because I realized all this after I got a taste of living. I was so scared to ever do anything before and now that there was a good chance I would die I wanted to do all these things and I might not get the chance.

"I'm not going to be able to go to collage or get married or have kids or, or-"

"Hey, sh, sh, sh." He soothed, pulling me closer to himself. "Tyler, you don't know that. For all you know you could beat this, you are going to beat this."

"We don't know that, I could get worse and I could die." I buried my head in his chest. "I don't wanna die, Josh."

"Ty, you aren't going to die. You are going to live a good life, I know you will." He kissed the top of my head. "I could tell from the first time I saw you that you were strong."

I hiccupped. I didn't want Josh to ever leave me, even if we weren't a thing or that we didn't know each other for that long, I just wanted Josh to stay by my side.

"You won't leave me, will you?" I asked between hiccups and sniffs.

"I would never. I know how hard it is and I want to be there for you, plus you're too cute."

I laughed a little at the last part. He was such a dorky sap. I loved that.

"You think I'm cute?" I asked, my face turning a nice pink color.

"Well I did kiss you last night. So yeah, I think your cute." A smile playing on his lips. (That's how it goes, right? Oh whatever)

"Your not so bad yourself, Dun." I let one of my arms drape over his side.

"Oh my gosh, Tyler, did you just call me cute?" Josh fake squealed.

"Oh, shut up." I laughed at the ridicules mock hurt face he made at me.

"Okay, but in all seriousness would you wanna go on another date with me?" Was that a hint of nervousness in his voice? Twas.

I smiled. "I look like shit and you still ask me? Of course its a yes."

"Well you look good all the time."

My heart swelled. He was such a sweetheart, it kinda hurt. I kissed him quickly on the lips, just barely brushing.

"What a tease." He joked at me.

"That's what I do best."

He loosed his hold on me and reached for the coffee and donuts. I made room for him to set it between us.

"Let's drink this before it gets cold." He said as he set it between us.

I could do this everyday. It was so nice, just sitting there and talking and laughing. I just felt so alive with home and I couldn't get enough of it. It kinda hurt.

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A/N
I'm sorry this took so long for me to update. My life is kinda crazy right now and im just not feeling so good.

So yep, enjoy this sad/cute chapter.

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