Trapdoor

Chapter 11

I laid on the cold ground, looking up at the stars. I didn't know what pulled me to sit outside at 3 in the morning and gaze up at the dark sky. I guess it might be the fact that my doctors told me earlier that day that I had a 15% less chance of making it, making it 65% chance.

Its still a good chance, but that fact that it went down made me realize that I was getting worse. I was only 5 months into treatment, 5 months into my relationship with Josh, and 5 months of complete torture. Thinking about it made me sick to my stomach (or was it just the cemo?).

What made me feel worse was that I hadn't told Josh, or any of my friends. My friends that slept inside at that very second. That was the reason I brought them over, so I could tell them about the recent news.

Once they got there, they started having fun and joking around. I didn't want to ruin their night by bring bad news. I didn't want to make them worry even more about me.

Letting out a breath, I debited on calling Josh, knowing that he'd answer me. I pulled my phone out, wincing as I unlocked it and the bright light blinded me.

I sent him a text.

tyjo: hey you up?

fuckboi<3: you know it

fuckboi<3: what are you doing up?

tyjo: idk I just can't sleep

fuckboi<3: somthin bothering you?

tyjo: i dont want to worry you with it

fuckboi<3: now i am so you have to tell me

tyjo: ...

tyjo: i think you'd rather hear it in person

incoming call from fuckboi<3

I answered right away, feeling my body warm when I heard Josh. "Ty, what's going on? Are you okay?"

"I- Josh, I don't know." I felt a lump form in my throat.

"Talk to me baby, what's wrong?" Worry was clear in his voice, making me feel guiltier then ever.

Should I lie or should I just come out with the truth? Well to late because the truth was already spilling out of my mouth.

"Josh, they told me that I have a 65% chance of living now." I felt tears sting my eyes as I choked the words out. "I'm getting worse."

Josh stayed quite.

"Please say something." I begged him, letting the tears blur my vision.

I heard him take in a shaky breath. "I'm coming over, okay? I'm coming right now, ty."

I heard the sounds of car keys and the opening of a door. I tried my best to take deep breaths so I wouldn't pass out. I heard a car door slam and a car start.

"Josh, I'm so-" I tried to say but Josh shushed me.

"Don't be sorry about something you can't control. You are trying your best and you just got to keep trying. I'll talk to you when I get there, okay?"