Trapdoor

Chapter 9

Its been a week since I saw tøp and I'm crying
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"Just do it."

"Are you sure?"

"Its going to fall our anyway, so why not just shave it off?"

I was sitting in my kitchen with Josh, a towel rapped around my shoulders and the faint buzzing of a hair clipper filling the silence in the room. I had been telling Josh to get it over with for past 5 minutes, but he kept asking me if I was sure. I just wanted it gone so I wouldn't cry when it started falling out.

"J, please." I begged, a lump started forming in my throat as I spoke. "Just do it."

"Okay, baby boy." He ran his fingers through my hair one last time before he brought the clippers to my head.

I watched as clumps of my hair fell to the floor, the last thing that made me feel like I was okay. I guess this made it real. I hated the feeling of it being real.

It didn't take long for Josh to shave it all off and once he was done he took the towel off my shoulders. I felt naked without my hair, making me sick to my stomach. I felt tears burning behind my eyes.

I guess it didn't matter how it happened, I'd cry no matter what. And once we got up to my room I let it all out, hugging onto Josh like he was my life line. He rubbed my back and told me how strong I was and how beautiful I was.

I hiccupped and he kissed the top of my head.

"You can beat this, Tyler." I could hear his voice tremble as he spoke. "You are so strong and I know you can beat this."

"God damn, you're going to make me cry harder." I took breathed in harshly.

"I love you." He spoke suddenly.

"I love you, too." I didn't even need to think before I said it because it was true, I've loved him since the night we first talked.

He was my everything now. And I was going to kick cancers ass for him.
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A/N: SoRRy ThIS wAs jUsT a FillEr aNd iTs So sAD