Trapdoor

Chapter 14

"Tyler?" The voice was soft and familiar, it wasn't far away anymore.

I tried as best as I could to turn my head in the direction of the voice, only being able to a tiny bit. When I did, I felt someone grab my hand and squeeze it.

"That's it, ty." They encouraged. "Just move a little more, baby."

I tried opening my eyes, getting frustrated when no new light cane through my vision. Why couldn't I open my eyes, it felt like it had been years since I seen light. Why did I have to mess up?

Josh kissed my hand again, rubbing his thumb against my hand. "I know you can do it, baby, you are so, so, strong."

I tried moving my head again, only to end up wanting to scream. My body just wouldn't corporate with me and it pissed me off. I wanted to hold his hand back, to rub my hand over the blanket, to feel his soft red curls. The feeling of not being able to do that killed me.

The thought of never being able to made me want to throw up. I'd rather die then be here for the rest of my life, being trapped in my own head. It would drive me crazy.

"Tyler, please, we need you to do something to know your still there." Josh pleaded.

My heart broke into a million pieces. I wasn't gone and I wasn't about to leave them, especially Josh. They didn't deserve this, my stupid decisions had caused everyone else to suffer. I was reckless, out of control. They were right, it wasn't just about me.

I tried to scream, tried to move my head, my legs, my arms, anything. But I was like a toy without any batteries, not being able to light up and move. My body had become my coffin.

"You aren't gone are you?" He asked quietly, the room becoming deathly silent.

No.

"I love you, Tyler and I can't lose you."

I love you, too.

There was a pause.

"You were so blue when we found you, ty." Josh took in a shaky breath. "Bren though you were dead."

I'm not, Josh, I swear.

Josh has started to cry silently."You where in just a shirt and sweat pants, no shoes or socks. I couldn't see your chest moving."

Its moving now, j, see, its moving now.

"When I grabbed you, I thought that you were dead for sure. I had to put my head up to your chest to find a heart beat, your wrist were just so cold I couldn't stand it."

They're warm now. Don't be sad Joshy.

"Tyler, I thought I lost you."

Well you didn't, I'm just trapped for right now.

"Why did you run? Why would you run away from me? I was there to catch you when you were falling."

It was to hard, I'm sorry.

"Tyler, I swear if you die I'll never forgive you."

I felt my lips twitch into a smile.

I wouldn't forgive myself either.

"You won't die, with you?"

Not in a million years, joshy.

He squeezed my hand, and I finally squeezed back.

Josh sucked in a breath. "Tyler?"

I squeezed again, loving the feeling of his hand in mine.

"Nurse. Nurse!" Josh called, his voice on the edge of panicky and joyful.

I would pick the lock of this coffin to live another day.