The Way I Loved You

Chapter 34: Tour- Day 21: New York

Emilia's POV
This tour has never been so tiring. It's only been a few weeks snd we had toured majority of South America and was now in North America going round a few states and New York was our first. I pulled myself out of bed for an early start the filming crew wasn't going to film today because Kai was going to see Becky and Noah is coming too and they both don't want to be filmed and Kai wants this to be as private as it can be. Little Conor has joined us since Brazil and I think he has coped with jetlag better than us... then again he is small.

I changed into a blue playsuit with pink and white stars printed on it, it also had a little pink belt around my waist. I slipped my feet into a pair of white converse braiding my hair slinging it on my shoulder, I'm tempted to dye my hair again but not brown- a unique colour. I did my make joining Kai and Conor in the front lounge. I grabbed a cookie dough pop tart- I prefer them cold- joining the twos conversation about pandas. Yes pandas.

"May I ask why you two are talking about pandas?" I interrupted

"Kai wants panda as a pet" Conor said

"I do" Kai smiled Conor shook his head frantically

"No!" He declared

"Shh" I whispered making Conor put his finger up against his mouth making me and Kai laugh. Will woke up and took Conor upstairs to get changed.

"You ready for today?" I asked Kai who just sighed

"I guess so" He said so quietly it came out as a whisper

"I'll be there to" I said comforting

"I know. I just don't know what I'll do if you wasnt" Kai looked like he was about to cry or go into a massive anger fit

"Did you sleep?" I asked knwoing he kept tossing and turning

"Not really. I probably slept for 10 minutes then I kept Conor company" Kai replied

"Go and try and get some sleep" I said stroking his hand

"No my thoughts won't let me, I just need today to be over" Kai said lying down on my lap I moved him so he sat up again

"It'll be fine. You're going to see your beautiful child, whether it's a girl or a boy he or she will love you the same. It's your child make the most of it" I said looking into his eyes

"But it's breaking me knowing that's it not ours. It's killing me knowing that you aren't it's really mum." Kai broke down my heart stopped. He's right though.

"And you know what. I'll do my absolute best to be a step mum to it. That's a promise I can keep" I said Kai froze looking into my eyes

"You'll do it for me?" Kai asked after a long silence

"You and the baby, whatever it takes" I said stroking his cheek wiping away the tears that fell

"Thank you. I love you so much" Kai mumbled kissing me.

Kai's POV
I tangled my hand with Emilia's as we walked up the drive that led to Becky's house

"I'm here" Em whispered as I knocked on the door

"Yes?" A tall man about my height, answered

"Erm I'm here to see Becky" I said my heart besting

"Jay, let them in" Becky, herself appeared

"Somebody explain what's going on" 'Jay' asked

"Baby, go to work. I'll explain later" Becky kissed his cheek. 'Jay' whatever his name is, went over to this little boys sat in his highchair kissing his head before leaving.