I DO <3

Too Late..?

"I like it when you blush!" She said as she inch her face closer to mine, not breaking eye contact. "Makes me really want to kiss you."

I can feel her hot breath against my lips, her eyes lingered a bit on my lips then back on my eyes. I just stood there and stare back into those hypnotizing eyes.

And I never thought I will ever do this in my entire life but I did.

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The dinner went alright. Well, alright for those people around me but I'm definitely far away from being alright.

My mind is in a roller coaster, all my thoughts are jumbled and I'm messed up. I had that bugging feeling in me that can't seem to go away even though I tried to focus on the things happening around me. I'm confused and I'm scared and I just can't figure out what happened a while back.

I felt this nagging aura wrapped me in a tight bun and I can't settle down with something lingering at the back of my mind.

I felt a gentle squeeze on my hand and I look at the person who owns the hand. I find myself staring at a pair of chocolate brown eyes with specks of what seems like gold around its iris. I didn't notice those specks before and it was glowing magnificently in this incandescent lighting effect.

She smiled a reassuring smile. Like it was saying that its okay, that everything will be okay. Giving me a slight feeling of tranquility. I don't know, but the simple gesture made my raging emotions quiet down a bit.

"Okay, so Raf and I have something to tell you." Paul started, squeezing my other hand and pulling me to a stand.

Oh my god! This is it! He's going to announce our engagement. Once again, I got my mind all twisted and in utter chaos. I stole a glance towards Garette and I can't help but wish that everything was back a week ago, where I never met her and feel this mass disarray of thoughts. I don't even know why I'm feeling like this but I just do and I can't help but be bothered by everything.

I don't like this feeling. I don't like it in the least bit.

I smiled a pleasant smile as he's looking at me with his gorgeous emerald eyes with too much excitement.

"Oh, am I gonna hear something in the lines of -- your going to be a granny! -- cause I'd definitely like that!" Paul's mom said much too enthusiastically.

Everyone on the table laugh, even Paul. I don't know what to feel at this moment. One week ago, I'm fine being Paul's fiance and now, I don't really know. Is this how engaged couple feels? Shouldn't there be excitement or something? Sure I was excited the first time Paul proposed to me. I was in cloud nine back then, but what changed? Can I do this?

So many questions that I don't have an answer. So many that all I get are questions after questions.

"Mooooommmm!" Paul said, mocking a five year old while still laughing.

"Well, if that's not the big news then I'm not so interested now!" I smiled at this cause she has been bugging us for the last year to make her a granny.

"I bet your going to like what the big news is." His voice was full of excitement that somehow it is making me excited as well.

I watch him, studying his features. Paul is always this gleeful, always having something fun to say, you will never get bored with his company and that's what I like about him. He always make me laugh and contented. Everytime he looks at me, his emerald eyes would glimmer with gentleness that I would just sometimes be happy staring at them.