I DO <3

Indecisions!

This got me a little panicked but at the corner of my eyes I saw a girl near us. "Sure" I smirked and without thinking, grab the lady's hand. Not even looking to whoever she is and press my lips against hers. I'll just explain later, I so do hope she's not gonna slap me and embarrass me infront of all these people.

I felt her soft lips against mine and there's a sudden feeling that overwhelmed me.

OH MY FREAKING GOODNESS!! THIS HAS GOT TO BE A BIG JOKE!!

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RAF'S POV

I can't do it.

I can't do that to Paul.

I went straight into my apartment and basically lay on my bed. Staring at the ceiling like its the most interesting thing I've ever seen.

But my mind is elsewhere.

Travelling down memory lane.

Alright! I can't do this right now.

I opened my phone and instantly it buzzed to the sound of hundred texts and voicemails.

I erased all the new mails. I feel guilty as hell and I don't want to feel worse than I already am.

How the hell can I just do that without second thoughts?

I wanted to runaway but running away never does any good.

I dialled Paul's number.

"Hey Stripes, you got me worried all through the night. Are you alright?" Paul's worried voice interrupted my mind from wandering somewhere else.

I bit my lip to prevent myself from blurting everything out.

"I'm fine. Sorry. I was busy last night." Yeah right! Busy my ass!

The guilt was getting stronger. At least I was not lying when I said I was kind of busy. I never want to lie to him in any way. We've been this far and I don't want to ruin it just because I'm being a stupid bitch.

"So how was work?" I asked changing the subject. I don't want him asking me about my day.

"It was fine. Bryan's been a jerk all night telling me I was whipped!" He said laughing a bit.

I laugh slightly. "I know you are!" I exclaimed, teasing him.

"Hey, don't blame me!" His voice amused. "I got lucky finding the most incredible girl I've ever met." He said laughing slightly but I can sense the seriousness under his tone.

His making it hard for me!! How can I do that to him?

Paul being so adorable and sweet. Its not fair!

After talking to him in the shortest time I've ever talked to him. I get up and called my bestfriend.

I need someone to give me a piece of shit! NO! Not shit! Just a piece of something to get my head right.

Called the bestfriend: CHECK!

Ice Cream: CHECK!

Shopping: CHECK!

"So really, what are we doing shopping?" She asked in a suspicious tone.

"Just shopping." I told her like its the most common thing to do.

"Really?" Danica said in a flat tone. She's been my bestfriend ever since I can remember and I know that she know's there's something up. "So, Rafmarine Simon, owner of M&M Boutique Shop, suddenly had interest shopping?" She said sarcastically.