The Gray Zone

CHAPTER 33

/Alexi's POV/

In the lunch break, which was the only time my whole new squad and I could actually have good conversations together during a normal school day, we sat in an empty science room. This day was different though, it was just me and my boy, so he sat down against one of the walls and I did the same and put my head on his chest. I hated Wednesdays. There was always much to do and tests to pass and what not and I had to be around many people for like eight hours without a break, which was really exhausting. So I extra enjoyed it to just sit there and be held and smell this wonderful scent of him.

As if he could read my mind, Jesse asked me. "Do you want to skip the studying?"

I had offered to help him with math this week, today to be exact, because of the upcoming test. It was the last big one before the Christmas break, which I really, really needed.

"No, it's fine. I could spend years with you without getting exhausted." I said and smiled against his Hoodie.

It was actually forbidden to stay in the labs without a teacher, but who really cares, right? He began to hum something and I lifted my head, smiling. "I'm still not over your show." I grinned even though I had told him that a thousand times until now and kissed him. "And I honestly don't think I'll ever be."

"Do you want to come to another one?" Jesse asked and let his fingers move over my shoulder and my arm.

"Definitely" I approved and the broke the eye contact. "But there's this one thing though."

"What thing?" He questioned and I could immediately hear his voice drop.

"I... I don't like it when you're drunk." I made quick eye contact before staring at the black of his sweater again. "Like... you always get so jealous and uncontrollable. Plus I fear that someday you'll pass out and something serious happens..."

Silence fell over us before he made a noise like he was thinking what he should say and I could manage to look into his eyes again. "Yeah, I get you... It's just that when I feel really shitty alcohol and weed are making me feel better." He lowered his voice.

I breathed out. "It's different when you smoke something. Then you just relax. But with beer, you're always becoming that angry or sad little kid." Jesse nodded and I brought my hand up to his cheek. "I want to make you feel good all the time, so there's no need for drugs."

"I'll think about it, Alex." The boy answered and I wanted to kiss him again but we both heard steps coming down the hallway.

Within a second we were both on our feet again and starting to make our way to the door, before opening it a sprinting to the nearest staircase, hopefully without being seen. Soon after that the recess ended and I'd have to face two periods of French before having a bit of free time and then heading to the volleyball training.

/Sasha's POV/

I was finally done with the research on the evolution of the confederate flag for history and left the school's library. On my way out I had noticed Alexis sitting alone at a table and thought of saying something, maybe. But I didn't, because she wouldn't listen to what I'd say. She used to do that, before she thought that this tattooed toothpick was a better boyfriend than me and basically stopped being my friend now. To be honest, I was still, somewhere deep down, angry or sad or whatever at her, that she kissed me but didn't want to be my girlfriend.

Before leaving the building, I went to my locker and got my Geography book for the homework. Just as I closed the door again, I heard some voices around the corner. I couldn't hear what they said, but they sounded angry so I decided to see what was happening. Close to the wall, I sneaked towards the voices and turned my head around the nook when I got there. My view wasn't great but at least I could still somehow hide.