Table for 6

Part 15

"Hey Ryan!" I cheerfully called to him, as I walked into the classroom. It was now the ever so beautiful Friday. I couldn't wait for the weekend. I had to go see a doctor this weekend to check out my screwed up mind. I was dreading it alittle, but I really wanted to know why I couldn't remember anything from the past couple months.

"I don't want to talk to you, Catarina." He replied, coldly. Wow. Okay, I'm still not sure what's up with Mr. Jerk.

"Ryan, I don't exactly know what I did, but can you please forgive me?" Oh he answered me alright, that is if you call silence and a death glare an answer. "Ryan seriously, it couldn't have been that bad, right? You didn't tell me anything overly personal, did you?" I really wanted to know, I needed to catch up on everything. If I didn't, my head would soon explode from confusion.

"Catarina, your joking right? Overly personal? I told you my whole frickin' life story and you can't remember? Dirty liar. I always thought you were alittle bit of a-" I tried to zone out while he swore a couple times at me, "I thought you could at least keep my secret. But instead you try to get me to say it while other people are around."

"Just listen okay? I am really sorry. Please, forgive me. I just want things to go back to normal because I think my life was pretty good before." I felt tears welling up in my eyes. "Look, I'm sorry alright?" I sniffed and walked away from Ryan.

My plan to get away from him, didn't exactly work out to well though. That was mainly because the bell rang, and I had to go sit back down. Yes, at the same table as him. Our stupid table of 6.

I tried to focus on paying attention to the lesson, but I felt a hand tap mine.

I looked over to see Kathy pass me a note. It read:

What do u mean u think ur life was pretty good?

-Ryan

I didn't exactly know how to respond at first, but then I picked up my pen and wrote:

idk what happened 2 me. I can't remember anything from the past couple months. I didn't even know I had ever talked 2 u before, until K and K told me.

-Catarina

Ryan gave me a small puzzled look, before jotting down another message on the note:

u didn't like ur life before. U tried to keep too many secrets, and tht added to ur already pretty bad depression. fyi, we told each other everything.

-R

so u know about Jason?

-C

yeah and tht u think u need to b a perfect child to make up for losing him.

-R

y did I tell u tht?

-C

cause I told u about me.

-R

plz tell me, I can't remember, remember?

-C

yeah I remember. Well I already told you once so I guess I can trust you...sorta. Ok so, I'm adopted and my adopted sister's sister was the other car that night you were driving with ur brother. I'm srry u had to hear tht again.

-R

I looked up at him with blank eyes. He was adopted, and his sister's sister killed my brother? I had forgotten so much, but learned so many new things, and perhaps some unwanted things, over the past few months.

Ryan must have noticed I wasn't replying, because he grabbed the note from my desk and sent me another message that read:

u ok?

-R

yea, fine, it's just a lot to take in at once. Thx for telling me tho.

-C

ur welcome. Im srry tht this happened to u. Do u think maybe we could start over?

-R

of course, meet me outside at break :)

-C

He looked up from reading my last message and smiled. Boy, hadn't seen him smile at me for what seemed like forever. When he disliked someone he could be... I want to say mean, but it's not a strong enough adjective.

I was so excited and relieved that Ryan was going to forgive me. Although I had apparently almost ruined the chances of him and Macy getting together, he was still willing to forgive me. Which was a good thing to know.

I tuned back into the lesson, feeling pretty good.

Now I couldn't wait for break. Finally I could get some things cleared up. I hope.