Talking Spit

Crushes!!!!!

So, I got at least 5 people who requested this rant so here ya go. This one might be long because I'm adding stories and shit in here. If not, I can just make parts. I just want y'all to read them like y'all usually do and tell me some of y'all personal stories. That's all.

Crushes. *sigh* those thangs you get when you be feeling all in love and shit. We all have had one. We all have people have one on us. People always be having crushes on me, but tbh, Ion want them back. I'm having situations like this rn. Even girls be crushing but you know what, we gon leave them alone because I ain't gay. No offense to homosexuals/bisexuals.

Kimi, have you ever had a crush?

Uh duh! I mean we all are humans. I don't believe not one person hasn't had a crush. You a mf liar. Yes, you did. I have had PLENTY of crushes, and not near of them mfs liked me back. Fuck them. Remember I mentioned my last crush went to jail? Lawwwdddd, one of the most heart-breaking things ever.

I am not the type of girl that does not approach girls and say, "Hey, muddafucker. I like you. Come here and kiss me baby." I usually look for the guy to make the first move and have been let down so many times. *sigh* Usually when I like a guy, I love him from a distance. I am very shy. No one ever even knows I like ole dude, unless I tell them. Lemme tell y'all about my little "fiasco" with my old crush and why that incident caused me to be a heartless mf.

So, flashback to a year ago (almost exactly) to my freshman year of HS. I had P.E. last period and I  was not happy about that. I am probably the most lazy and unathletic person I know. Not to mention the fact that I am very clumsy and uncoordinated. But, it didn't bother me much since I had that class with two of my homegirls and we didn't get to the fitness part yet.

Thank God my crush never got to see my clumsy, uncoordinated, unathletic side. He would've laughed dead in my face.

Anyways, I wasn't feeling the class, but I saw a bunch of niggas in there. There was like 2, but this one particular chocolate hulk of sexiness that caught my attention. I mean he was FOINE. (very fine but on a whole 'nother higher level). Y'all listen. Omg. I remember he sat behind me to the right, and I used to always turn around and look at him. He would look back at me, too. *blushes*

He was tall, darkskin, WITH A 8 PACK, very fashionable/nice style, nice shoes, very humble, extremely cool and laid back, smart, and sometimes quiet. There was only two flaws about him.

First of all, he was a junior. Freshman and junior together....sounds like a disaster. Plus, he said out his mouth he would never date a freshman. He broke my heart when he said that.

Second, his teeth was a lil fucked up. You had to look realllllllllll close in order to peep that. And when I am feeling a nigga, I do a deep observation. I mean, he was wearing braces, so technically, he was getting his shit fixed.

Anywho, I was love with this nigga. Like, he had me listening to love songs and EVERYTHING. Planning out my wholeeeeee entire future involving this mf. At that point, I couldn't even imagine myself without him in my future. I was wayyyy too shy to talk to him, but I knew deep down inside he would eventually be mine.

I remember one day, our teacher wasn't there and we had a sub. I was doing my work and whatnot. Just being a good girl. I heard giggling and shit to my right. I turn around and my homegirl was laughing and flirting with him. Bitch, I was salty. She knew how I felt about him, she claimed she didn't like him, but yet she was all up in his face.

-.-

It got worse from there. Eventually, everyone was done with their work and we got free time. I sat at my desk on my phone and whatnot. She was over there. She took his camo visor cap and she was wearing it. AND SHE TOOK HIS PHONE AND TOOK PICS IN IT. -.- -.-

Wait, watch this.

She comes over to me and is like,"Kimiyonn, look. I got his hat on and he let me take pictures in it. Hehehehehe." I felt so betrayed. Omg. Talk about back stabbing. She knew I liked him a lot, but I guess that's where I fucked up at. Now I know when I like a guy, no one should know but me.

Anyways, he didn't come to school for a day. Ok cool. He didn't come the next day. ohhhhkay. Then, he missed the next day. It was weird because he usually came to school every day.

Then, I found out he went to jail. Mannnnnn. I was hurt. I never expected him to get arrested. He was so nice and so smart. I was surprised. AND THIS BAD MF GOT ARRESTED ON A GUN CHARGE. Really nigga. -.-

 Now, fast forward to this Mothers Day. A peer of mine died. I went on his Facebook and just looked on there. I knew in the 8th grade, he beat the brakes off of this dude that went to school with us. I wanted to watch it again and laugh my ass off. Homeboy got in other fights (and never took any L's at that) but that one was iconic to us.

So, after I watched that vid, I continued to scroll and find other vids. So, I was one with him and my crush. Well damn. They described in the descp. who was wearing what, so it was easier to tell who was who. Plus, in the vid, it was dark as shit outside, so it was hard to see.

Now, I remember when my crush made a comment about getting into a fight and how he never took any L's ever. Mmmmhhhmm right. Lemme see this vid and see for myself.

Boyyyyyy, homeboy beat the brakes off of my crush! I was sooo surprised fr. Like, homeboy SMOKED this nigga. Punching that nigga all in his grill and dunking him on the ground and shit.

After that, I lost all respect and feelings for my crush. And I was pissed his black ass never acknowledged me or liked me back. Fuck him. That's what he get. R.I.P. to homeboy though.(not my crush. that nigga ain't dead) 

That was long asf, but you know. I just thought of another crush story that is interesting asf. Imma do that one tomorrow. Please read. It might even make you laugh. I might even think of another one. This might be crush week where I share crush stories and y'all share your experiences, heartbreaks, and maybe triumphs. Let's keep it 100.