I spent the night at Luke's again and while Michael, Luke and Ashton were asleep I watched Netflix with Calum.
He glanced over at me. "Are you okay?"
No, I'm not. Not at all. I'm depressed. I have anxiety. My biggest fear is rejection. I want to tell someone. Maybe I should tell you. I need someone to hug me, tell me it's gonna be okay. I want to spill out everything. But what if I tell you and you reject me? What if you think I'm asking for attention?
"I'm fine, Calum. I'm just tired. Thanks though." I forced a smile and he hugged me.
"It's just that you've seemed off lately. You and Michael both. Is there something going on between you two?" He was worried. Why was everyone worried about me?
"Oh my god, no! Michael and I? No." I sounded like a 12 year old trying to his that she had a crush, which was obviously unbelieve. Calum just laughed.
"So," He started. "I like this. Just hanging out. Luke and Ashton usually do their own thing. They're probably having sex right now." He laughed. "Lashton af, amirite?" I burst into a fit of laughter and Calum kept saying that he was only joking.
We watched a few episodes of Friends before the boys started to wake up. They all walked down the stairs in a line. Michael's red hair was all in his face, while Ashton's was the same curly mess, and Luke's hair was surprisingly still in a formed quiff. They were all shirtless, and I tried my hardest not to stare.
They were all attractive, and it was really hard not to stare at them for ages. Michael plopped down on the couch in between Calum and I. He slung his arm around my shoulder and smiled. "Morning Cassie." He seemed happier today.
"Morning Mikey. Good morning guys." They nodded their heads and mumbled a short 'morning' before sitting down next to me. All five of us were squished on the little couch, but none of us wanted to move.
"Let me just say one thing. No more homemade pancakes." I looked over at Michael who was blushing, as he was probably thinking of when he was about to kiss me. Wait. He was about to kiss me? I sat there in shock for a while and shook my head and pushed the thought to the back of my mind.
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Luke, Ashton, and Calum left to go out to eat, while Michael and I wanted to stay in and eat cereal.
"Cass?" Michael asked.
"Yeah?" I asked as I poured us both a bowl.
"I wanna take you somewhere. Not to the park, but a place that's special to me." Michael smiled and shoved a spoonful of Cheerios in his mouth.
I nodded and continued eating my food.
Calum had texted me saying that he and the boys wouldn't be back until late, which gave Michael and I the entire day to hang out.
When we got out to Michael's car, he opened the door for me. "Wow, you're a gentleman." I thanked him and got in.
Once Michael got in he turned on the radio and Blink-182 was on. We looked into each others eyes and started yelling the lyrics to I Miss You.
Hello there,
The angel from my nightmare,
The shadow in the background of the morgue.
The unsuspecting victim of darkness in the valley.
We can live like Jack and Sally
If we want.
Where you can always find me
And we'll have Halloween on Christmas.
And in the night we'll wish this never ends,
We'll wish this never ends.
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Numb. || mgc
أدب الهواةShe was depressed. She was numb. She was a disease. He was her cure. He was saving her, but she was killing him. (updates every week)
