3 days later...
Riley pov
I still can't believe this happened. My baby didn't even get a chance to live. I will never get to see her face. They did the surgery while I was in the coma. I will never get to brush her hair, and buy her toys. I feel so lost right now. It's 3 am and I can't go to sleep. All of these thoughts are floating in my mind. Where has my baby gone? I start to cry again, until I cry myself to sleep.
A/N The next morning...
I wake up at 10:30 am to find James and Emily in my room.
"Good morning, beautiful," James said slowly. "Are you okay?"
I shake my head beginning to tear up again. Then waterworks. I start crying my eyes out. James walks over to my bed and sits opposite me. He places a hand on my shoulder. He didn't sit me on his lap, or kiss me or anything. He just say there.
"Riley, it's all going to be okay," Emily says. "This happened because God chose that it would. And who knows better than all of us? God."
"Shut up, Emily!" I shriek. "You wanted her gone in the first place!"
Emily gets up from where she was seated next to me and burst out the door.
"Ri, you know she didn't mean it before." James says. "This is not your fault. Or hers."
"I know bu-" I start, but he cuts me off.
"Shh. Calm down." He soothes. "In and out. Take deep breaths."
I go in for a hug, he takes me into his arms. But its not a 'James hug'. Something's wrong. He isn't holding me into his arms tightly like he would never let go. He's just sort of touching me. He's been kinda isolated for the past 3 days, I just don't get why.
"Thank you so much, James." I breathe out, when he pulls away. "At least I will always have you."
"No worries." He says. And he mumbles something I can't hear. He sits down on a wooden chair. And I flop down on the bed.
James pov
I'm being really distant from Riley. Have been the past 3 days. But the reason is for her own good. I don't want it to be out of no where when I break up with her.
It's not her, or me. It's that text. As much as its breaking me inside I have to. My heart is being torn apart every second. I want to hold her like I used to, but I can't.
The miscarrage is also tearing me apart. I'm not going to be a dad anymore. My baby's gone. My third little princess. If she could have stayed, I would've found away around that text, but now that's she's gone. I have to face it.
I swear if I get my hands on that driver, he's going where he sent my baby to. I know how hurt Riley is, and I feel exactly the same. I just don't want to do this to her. I love her, but what am I supposed to do.
"James, w-wanna have br-breakfast somewhere?" She stutters, interrupting my thoughts. "You know, w-we can talk about st-stuff."
I have to face this. I want her to see the break up coming, though. I have to isolate myself from her. Maybe even get her to break up with me.
"Sorry, I can't." I say, looking up from my phone. I wasn't even doing anything on it. Just rereading that stupid text. "I'm chillin with the guys."
I look back down at my phone.
"D-do you have to go?" She asks.
"Yeah. Promised them I would." I reply, not looking up from my phone.
"James, I mean, we lost our baby, and you're acting cool about it. Since when do 'the boys' come before Jiley?"
"Riley, I know. But that shouldn't stop you from living. At least you can do aerials again. Plus, I can't hang out with you all the time, Ri. You know that."
"I know that, but I need you, now."
"Well, so do the boys," I say, before getting up. I walk up to the door knob. "Bye, Riley."
"Bye."
Riley pov
James is being a really big jerk. We just lost our baby, and he wants to go 'chill with the guys'! Who would do that! Then a thought comes into my mind, but I push it away. No, its not true, it can't be true. Maybe he wanted me to lose the baby. No, James is better than that. I need Emily. I know I practically kicked her out, but I need her. So I send her a text.
Sns.
She replies almost immediately.
Be right there.
And soon enough, I hear a knock on my door.
"C-come in!" I say.
"Riley, what happened?" Emily asks, clearly worried.
"J-James, I don't know w-what's up with h-him." I explain.
"What did he say?"
"He's b-being distant. I a-asked if he w-wanted to get breakfast, h-he wanted to go h-hang with the boys."
"Ri, you know he's hurt too. Maybe he just doesn't feel comfortable. Talking about it. He's denying the fact that she's gone."
"I-I know. But I n-need him."
"Shhh. It's okay. I'm here, Ri."
A/N hope you liked this update! I've got exams soon, so I won't be updating. And just to clear up any confusion this chapter is set in Rileys room. What is James hiding?? Xx
