Babysitter | Calum Hood

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dedicated to nia because she motivates me to write this; I love you a lot :) xx

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"So you literally called him out when his whole family was watching? You're such a savage!" Ashton laughed as I grumpily paced back and forth in front of him. Luke laughed along with Ashton and I was about to lunge at the two six foot boys with the remainder of my rage towards Calum. Of course, I felt extremely guilty, but these idiots weren't doing a great job of reassuring me that I'm still a good person.

"Ashton, Luke, stop!" I whine, throwing my shoe at Luke's torso. It completely missed and hit him in the crotch, which caused Ashton to howl in laughter. I just continued to mutter more apologies. "God, my brain is such a mess right now."

I sighed loudly and dove for Ashton's couch. My face was muffled in the cushion and I grumbled loudly. Ashton soothingly rubbed at my back and told me everything was going to be okay. But things didn't feel okay. I basically just admitted to Calum that I had feelings for him and that I'm attracted to him. Plus, I don't remember if he said anything back to me. And my mother witnessed me confess my emotions. Oh my God.

After Luke recovered the blow to his groin, he toppled over my body, hugging me from behind. "It's gonna be okay. Everything's gonna blow over by Monday," he mumbled into my hair. I actually believed him.

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Everyone was eerily silent when Luke, Lindsay, Ashton and I walked into school Monday morning. I wanted to quickly turn around and run back home but sadly, I'd pass out from too much physical activity after two blocks, and Luke grabbed my wrist before I could escape. Lindsay hugged me, and then scampered off to her first period class.

Obviously, no one else knew about this whole blow up, but it feels like they did. Just by the way someone glances at me, I feel like they actually know. But they don't. I quickly waved goodbye to Luke and Ashton and walked over to my locker to exchange my textbooks. I felt my stomach drop as I spotted Calum down the corridor.

His brown eyes met mine and he started to walk over to where I stood. Sighing deeply, I slammed my locker shut and ran to my first period class. All I wanted was to avoid him and think about life on the roof of the school. That roof is where I felt the safest from all of these feelings.

Feelings suck, but it'd be worst if I felt nothing.

"Kendall," someone whispered, throwing something light at my back. I didn't turn around, not wanting to socialize with anyone. "You butthead, turn around!"

I pivot my body, annoyed, until I saw Michael smiling largely at me. He looked adorable in his two sizes too big sweater and black jeans. Mikey looked too cute to be annoyed with.

"When did you get into this class?" I laughed while Michael placed his hand on his chest in a fake hurt kind of way.

"Kendall, I am appalled that you do not recognize me from your math class."

"You weren't here the other day?" I questioned, narrowing my eyes at the artificially blonde giant. He laughed loudly, causing heads to turn.

"Alright, you got me. I asked guidance to switch me because one of my one night stands wouldn't stop bothering me in my math class," Michael confessed and I smiled at him. "So, I wanted to ask you how you're doing after what happened at-"

"I'm okay," I answered quickly, not wanting him to continue talking about this topic. He opened his mouth to speak one last time, but our teacher strolls in waving a pop quiz in his hand.

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After a couple more agonizingly long periods and running away from Calum when I see him in the hallway, I finally was at peace swinging my limbs over the edge of the school. I loved having the power to decide if i ever wanted to jump or to stay on. I loved being in control. But with my feelings recently, I feel like I'm never in control and it's honestly so annoying.

I kept my lunch in its brown paper bag and swung my legs back over to safety. I lied down so my back felt the cold concrete and stared at the sky. The clouds were big, white, and a fluffy. I remember thinking they were made of cotton candy and it felt so surreal to know they're no longer a sweet treat, but water vapor. Staring off, looking at a glob that awkwardly looked like a rabbit, I didn't take notice of the door opening.

"Princess?"

I quickly scrambled to my feet and looked directly at Calum, who had a slight frown on his face and his hands in his front pockets. My heart got caught in my throat as I stared at his tall, slender figure standing in what was my place of tranquility and serenity. "No, go away right now," I mumbled, just loud enough for him to hear me. He's ruining my happy place. I could feel my chest heave, trying not to panic. I was about to lose it when he stepped forward, attempting to get closer to me. "Stop! Go away! You're ruining this. You're ruining everything," I said, already feeling more and more upset. I've been having  such terrible days and nights just thinking of how Calum screwed up my feelings. Seeing him in front of me, tired and sad looking, made me want to sob more than I already do daily.

"Princess-"

"That's not my name. Stop calling me that," I whimpered, as he stepped closer. He was a decent three yards away, yet I started to feel suffocated by his presence.

"Kendall, can you please just listen to me?" he pleaded, finally taking more steps until he finally was face to face with me. He grabbed my face, caressing my cheeks with his thumbs and stares into my eyes intently.

"Why are you doing this to me?"

"What am I doing?"

"You're making me feel like I like you, but then you're mean and I don't know how to feel," I confess, seeing flashes of regret swim around in his dark brown eyes. "I really don't know what to do anymore," I sigh, looking down at my shoes. Calum's warm hands fall from my face and I internally groan, already missing the feeling of them on my face.

He unexpectedly pulls me into a hug, one arm tightly around my waist and the other stroking my hair soothingly. "God, I'm so sorry about all of that. I just don't know what the hell I'm doing with all of my feelings of jealously and adoration and I'm just taking out my frustration on you because you're causing them. I know that's a crap excuse for being a dick to you but I'm so sorry, Princess, and all I want is to be your boyfriend and I don't know if I'm good enough for you," Calum rambled, muffling some of his speech into my hair. I sighed into his chest and wrapped my arms around his waist tightly. His scent engulfed my senses once again and his words made my heart ache. I was slowly forgiving him and I don't know if it was the right choice or not. I like him a lot.

"Kendall, please say something. I need to know if you're actually in my arms right now and it's not another heartbreaking nightmare where you reject me," he uttered.

"It's okay. This is realer than I thought it would be like. I like you still and I'd love to give you another chance, just please don't mess up again."

Calum kissed my forehead happily and hugged me to his body closer. The warmth radiating off of his body sent a feeling of admiration through my body. This was real. This is what I've been wanting since I first started the annoyingly refreshing banter.

"Princess, you have no idea how much I like you."

"And you have no idea how much I like you."

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SO RUSHED
SO UGLY
IM SO SORRY
I JUST NEEDED TO UPDATE

ok so ive been slacking on updates but i'll try to update like every weekend you know? so expect a cute update next weekend.

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