love that binds me

chapter 22

I've been trying to avoid Ariel the last few days but feedings were inevitable. I felt my own discomfort from not being near her for a long time.

Its been six days since the first time we practiced and i can't stop thinking about it.

Which is why i resorted to hiding in the attic. It was dusty, Colorless but filled with books and boxes.

I stayed huddled in the corner with some form of book. Back home we learned very little about education. One thing i did pick up was reading.

I felt Ariel's frustration as she looked for me.

When the door creaked i held my breath. She had finally found me.

Christopher came through the door and closed it.

I sighed. As long as it wasn't her.

He turned and hissed.

"Who's there?" He growled.

I bit my lip and stayed still. He sniffed the air then calmed.

"Hiding from Ariel ?" He chuckled taking a window seat.

I stood from where i was hiding.

"Kinda. Can you not tell her i was up here?" i dusted off my jeans and hoodie.

"As long as you don't tell anyone about this place." He leaned his head against the glass.

I walked a little closer.

"Your hiding place to huh?" i smiled.

"Yea. Everyone forgot about this place a long time ago." He ran his hand through his dark brown hair.

"Why?" I came and sat somewhat close to him.

"This used to be....my parents library." His face became dejected and haunted.

He was lost deep in thought.

"Hey," i touched his hand and even i couldn't deny the electric shock that hit me. "If it helps i didn't know my dad and my mom....hasn't really been one."

"How does it help knowing we both are missing our parents?" he asked. His light blue eyes held my brown ones.

"We have something in common." i said.

He chuckled and i noticed just how close our faces became.

"Can i kiss you?" He whispered.

I nodded unsure at first until he leaned in.

I've kissed a lot of guys. A LOT. I can honestly say i never felt anything for them though.

When he kissed me i felt electricity shoot through me. I knotted my hand in his hair and deepened the kiss. Not out of habit but because i wanted to.

Christopher broke away first. I blushed deeply realizing that it was just our first kiss.

That's when his eyes changed. From a pale blue to a deep black. I wanted to scream. I should have screamed, he looked terrifying.

"Mine." He growled deeply.

i gasped and crawled back slightly. He mated on me. I did have a mate. Not only was he a vampire, but the king over them.

I shook my head.

His face fell. "Jothi? Please-" He reach for me but i dodged him.

"Stay away. That was just a kiss!" i backed away from him.

"But your mine! Your my mate!" He pleaded.

"No!" I shook my head like crazy.

I was in love with alec!

My chris, came to mind.

I turned and ran. He followed but not full speed.

"Get away from me!" I screeched startling a few servants.

i ran back to my room and locked the door.

"Jothi please talk to me." He begged.

"NO!" i yelled back.

By the time i fell into bed i couldn't hold back my tears. I screamed and sobbed into the soft nice pillows and sheets.

I finally lost my last thread to Alecsander. I was supposed to love him. I was supposed to love him the way he loved me!

'Jothi please unlock the door.' his voice was as clear as if he'd been next to me. I looked around.

'I need to talk to you.'

It was then i realized he was in my head.

"Get out of my head!" I screamed throwing a pillow at the door.

he sighed deeply. A deep wave of pain and hurt hit me. At first i thought it was Ariel, but it felt to different. Stronger even. I realized it was him.

I cried until i had no more tears left.

"Christopher what's wrong are you ok?!" i heard Tali run to my door.

I hiccuped trying to calm the crying.

"I don't understand what i did wrong." he muttered. "I've waited decades for her." He whimpered.

"Ok, your not well. Are you drunk?" She asked. Before he could answer she cut him off.

"Hey servant! Help the king to my room. He isn't well!"

I cried more that night until i fell asleep.

I had vague memory or dream of Ariel coming into my room and getting into my bed.

She was dressed skimpy as always and bit into my neck. I was practically asleep already so the endorphines helped lull me.

I woke up with a pang in my neck. I touched the spot to find to puncture marks. I covered my face.

Amber was already In my room placing new outfits in my closet.

"So i was thinking wine colored sweater dress this time?" She held it up but when i didn't comment she held up another.

"Or...or a navy blue-"

I went into the closet myself and pulled out black skinny jeans, a knitted sweater with a hoodie and flats. That was something I've been dying to do this since the first day.