You Belong To Me (Kaylor)

165.

Taylor returned to the kitchen as she stood against the counter in a daze.

"Hey, how did your conversation go with Karlie?"

Taylor couldn't even respond to her mother. She just burst into tears and collapsed against her mother's chest.

"Taylor what happened?"

"I don't know what's wrong with me. All I ever do is hurt her and she does nothing but give me everything I could ever ask for. I can't blame her if she leaves me. I'm just all screwed up in the head. I never loved anyone as much as I love her and I'm always so worried that she'll eventually leave me like everyone else. I don't want to be this way but I can't help it and I know I'm driving her away."

"Shhhh, Taylor. It's going to be ok. If Karlie really means that much to you, then you need to go to her. But remember, we've been down this road before. I don't think I can keep giving you the same talk. I think you need to start up your counseling sessions with Miss Simpson again. She was so helpful the first time around. Why don't you call her. But don't let too much time pass, darling. If things are at a breaking point now, then you need to act quickly."

Taylor decided to take her mother's advice and call Miss Simpson.

"Hi, Miss Simpson? It's Taylor."

"Hello Taylor. It's nice to hear from you. How is everything going?"

"Not good. I'm driving Karlie away with my insecurities and I don't know what to do anymore."

Taylor went on to tell Miss Simpson everything that had happened between her and Cara before she went to St. Louis and then everything that happened leading up to the present moment.

"Taylor, first off you need to give your relationship room to breathe. When you plant a seed, it requires sunlight, water, and air to survive. This is no different with a relationship, you need to give each other room to continue to develop. Schedule some separate time. The developing flower needing room to grow, doesn't mean it's going to collapse."

"Rather than looking for Karlie to make you feel secure in your relationship, you need to start reassuring yourself. Start to challenge your own fears. When you see Karlie talking to another girl, rather than instantly getting worried that she'll cheat, ask yourself if there is any real reason for this fear. Even if your marriage failed, you need to know that you will get through it and be ok. We all need to 'go with the flow' in relationships. What we fear will be the 'end of the world' never really is."

"Focus on the good. Insecure people tend to see only what ISN'T working, try looking at what IS working. A good relationship is there for you both to enjoy  and develop together. If Karlie treats you badly, lies and cheats, then feeling insecure is a natural and justified response. But if that's not the case, I must say that you're in a generally good relationship."

"The most important piece of advice I can give is not to compare Karlie to previous relationships. Make a list of all of the destructive traits of your past partner. Next to it make a list on how Karlie is different and review the list regularly. This will help you stop assuming that your future will be like your past."

"There's not much more I can say, other than to try and take that advice and talk to Karlie. People don't realize how truly important communication is. She's not a mind reader. And Taylor, I'm always here to listen. Call me if you need to talk again."

"Thank you Miss Simpson. Bye."

Taylor arranged for her plane to be ready as soon as possible. She knew her marriage was at a breaking point and had to do something about it.

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Back in NY Karlie went to visit Cara who was much more alert and upbeat than the previous day.