Don't Dream It's Over

Already Gone

Jane's Point Of View:

I laid in bed listening to the sound of the rain make a "pitter patter" sound on the bedroom window. I couldn't sleep. I don't know what to do. I love Maura, I will always love her. She is the love of my life. I just feel like the love and passion is gone. I just...I just don't know.

The thirty days are up. I am some what nervous. Today I am making the hardest choice in my life. Sophia is still asleep, and it was time for me and Maura to talk. I was sitting on the couch, waiting for Maura. When she finally sat down, we just kind of stared at each other.
"This was to make us better, and it did. I feel like it really did. It took a long time, and it sucked but...I love you Jane. I love you. Life without you terrifies me and the world is making less and less sense. But what I need is my anchor, it's you. I need you. I am so glad that this break is over." Maura said breaking the silence and I felt the tears rolling down my cheeks.

"The last thirty days have taught me so much. All I wanted when we first did this, was to know that we would be together. But from the minute I sat down I could feel it, I felt I was gonna be suffocated. The last several weeks, I have laughed more, I have done more. I've enjoyed myself more than...and I finally feel free. And by being free, I can see now that constantly trying to fix us is the thing that's been killing me slowly. And I don't want to do it anymore. I don't want to fix it or fix us anymore. Maybe instead of loving you so hard, I should- I should be myself for a while. I should love me, and you should love you, and together we love Sophia rather than... I want so much for you, Maura. For both of us, so much more than this. More than being stuck with someone who feels stuck. I want you to feel free too." I said the tears streaming down my face. Maura just stared at me, her eyes glassy, holding back the tears, her eyes filled with hurt. I didn't know what else to do, so I just got up, packed a few things and headed to the front door.

Maura's Point Of View:

I didn't quite wrap my head around what just happened. I didn't hit me until I saw Jane walking out the door with her suit case. I then felt the tears start to roll down my cheeks. This can't be happening, I just want to wake up and for all of this to just be a dream. I don't know what to do, I feel like my whole world just came crashing down on top of me.

Jane's Point Of View:

When I walked out the front door, the cold Boston air hit my face. My eyes red and puffy, nose cold, red mixed with crying and the cold air. I got into my car and turned the heater on. I looked back the house that held the love of my life and my daughter. I drove off and headed for a hotel.

A/N: Ok I know very sad, but please keep reading I promise that it will be better. You just need to be patient and wait for what's coming. Thank you all.